~~ after camp... ~~

So long didnt update my blog.. because im really quite busying working and camp preparation... wahaha!! and now finished the camp... so happy!! but have to continue works and earn money lo... =P
This is my 猪脚!! wahaha... after kenal leach bite me...
so happy.. this year camp successful again.. happy ending.. yeah... ^^
sorry sorry sorry.... wahahaha =D

really tired.... leg itchy, cough, flu.... so many sick come to find me... hope recovery soon... wahaha... tomorrow jia you works.. fight fight fight.. yeah!!

welcome to our group... =)
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shi wei!!
take care!! ^^

Finally presentation successful

Finally, my final year presentation already successful... hope i can get passed.. =)
erm... work work work... try to find out what really suit for me to do... =)
go go go!! jia you go go go~~~ =)

besides, camp is around the corner.. have to prepare everything le... jia you.. go go go also.. hehe..

shi wei!!
PASS PASS PASS!!

[转]一直都没有人懂我，我习惯了一个人坚强，一个人面对所有

其时，我很累了

其实，一直没有人懂我。我习惯假装坚强，习惯了一个人面对所有…

我不知道自己到底想怎么样

有时候

我可以很开心的和每个人说话，可以很放肆的；

可是却没有人知道，那不过是伪装，很刻意的伪装

我可以让自己很快乐很快乐，

可是却找不到快乐的源头，只是傻笑。

我不习惯把事和别人说，因为我不习惯别人用可怜的眼光看我。

其实，我很珍惜身边的人，只是生活的压力让我善于遗忘，把那些记忆通过通遗忘

我以为遗忘可以让自己快乐起来…

可是，我感觉到的却是更多的寂寞…

黑夜来袭，周围的空气很冷…

一个人坐在草地对着天空发呆…

也不知道自己脑子里在想什么…

怀念过去，仅此而已…

其实，我也很渴望有一个人能懂我；能走进我的心…

其实，我很累了，真的想放下所有…

可是现实的压力只能让我背着这些慢慢走…

登fb进入自己的空间

看看有多少人还在意着我，来看过我，我有多少空间动态…

接着

下拉，再下拉…

更重要的是自己关心的那个人的动态…

却只是看看，并不打扰…

何时发现，我不再爱写日志，即使有最新的日志，前面也会带个[转]…

不是我变的懒了，而是我疲惫了…

情愿用别人的语言，来抒发自己的情感…

挂了fb，却不上线

挂了fb，却不聊天

只是反复着‘展开分组’和‘关闭分组’…


上线，是为了打发寂寞；

隐身，是为了躲避失望；

就这样

挂了fb，隐了身，看着别人的一点一滴变化…

何时

我不喜欢追逐打闹，却很想和以前一样活蹦乱跳

何时

我让自己变得沉默 ，

却很想多了解身边所谓的朋友

我喜欢在很静很静的深夜，关了灯让寂静把我包裹，却又害怕黑夜…

我也会偶尔的和朋友聚聚，

或开心

或失望

偶尔，也会寂寞的拿起手机翻开通讯录，一遍一遍的… 却不知道该打给谁、、、、、 　　再好的东西都有失去的一天，再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天；再爱的人也有远走的一天；该放弃的决不挽留，该珍惜的决不放手！

shi wei!!

Tomorrow is presentation!!

Tomorrow is my final year project presentation day!! really scary right now... keep hungry... i really try my best already... hope tomorrow will nothing happening.. let me PASS... PASS....PASS..... haiz... suffer right now pula.... who can chat with me??
myself.... better dont.. later think too much again.... ah~~~~

suffer suffer...

wish myself...
good luck!!

shi wei!!

Really nice.. someone share this..

When i read it.. really so truth... =)
（1）很多话我没说，别以为我不懂。
（2）骗我可以，但不要被我知道。
（3）我可以容忍，但别超过我的底线。
（4）我可以装傻，但别以为我真傻。
（5）不做第三者，即使再喜欢。

（6）不喜欢就是不喜欢，说啥也没用。
（7）任何的真话，我都能接受。
（8）对我不留情面的人，我会记住的。
（9）不给喜欢的人添麻烦。
（10）在喜欢的人面前，能不哭就不哭。

（11）可以为喜欢的人做任何改变，但不试图改变他。
（12）用单纯的心对待朋友和为求我爱的人。
（13）对我关心的人，我会双倍回报。
（14）我不是没脾气，只是不轻易发脾气。
（15）我不暧昧，但不代表不会。

（16）宁缺毋滥，绝不因为寂寞而恋爱。
（17）但是只要爱上一个人，我敢说绝对不是因为寂寞才跟她好的。
（18）如果你拿我不当回事，我会以同样的方式对你的。
（19）有些事情不要以为我真傻…只是不愿意揭穿你而已！
（20）有些事情不要以为我真傻…只是我不想让你的形象在我心中完全破灭而已！

wahahaha.. share to all of you.. ^^
hope you all remember it... =D

~~~ November almost the end ~~~

Times really fast forward already.... now already is 27 November!! Today early morning going to works already... however it is saturday!! i still have to works... wahaha !! great.... and it is my best fren!! sha po birthday... i have sent her a wish... so sorry ya cant going to find you and treat you eat.. next time ya.. my best fren!! =)
wish you always happy!!

through today can play badminton... but cancel already... oops... cant exercise again... haiz.... nvm ah.... so hungry... really what can i eat... erm.... somemore alone, really dont know can eat what..... later only go out walk and have a look.. =)

tuesday 30 november have to present my final year project.. just hope to pass... dont think too much anymore.. take time to get ready already... =) jia you to myself.. go go go!!

i still cant let go?? erm....
no ideas... tired!! suffer!! stress!!
dont think ah... family, frens , love.... just let it beside..

tired~~ shi wei!!
go find food 1st.. hungry sei... xD

~~ Wrong mistake!! ~~

Wrong mistake... why im so "大头虾"!! im never did this kind of mistake.. this time really wrong mistake... really so sorry to Hou hock... but anyway... next time you black list me also nvm.... im understand what is 信用!! im spoiled my own 信用 only... but im really not the person... if you bu shuang me i also cant do what... is myself mistake and wrong...

this recently stressful make me did a lot mistake... could not have this kind of things happening again... really big mistake... give myself another warning..
but im 信用 1... im always 信用 当饭吃~~ but this time really mistake.. haiz.. really so sorry to hou hock.... sorry!!

erm... sometime i think, i did this kind of mistake.. maybe it is because myself too lonely.. while got people invite, then too happy and didnt check my date list.. until this kind of mistake came out.. haiz... lonely ma lonely lo.. why want like that... haiz... cant make it again... PROMISE to self...

shi wei!!
we cant said people... because maybe people 有难而不能言!!
see back self... you are not a prefect.. nobody is it...
respect others!!! im respect you,please respect me..
im not stupid.. im just diam diam...
however im lonely.. but i still got my 信用 and 尊严!!

~~~ Now the World ~~~

Ah.... so scare with my final year project.. however im done.. so scare get fail.... just let me pass... please... hope my FYP pass!!

tired tired!! lolz... works works works.. wahaha... =D

suddenly feels something about... wrote it out 1st... xD
Now the world.... Girls = ???
erm.... if you are
leng zai + $$ ~~ all girls want...
leng zai + $ ~~ half girls want...
leng zai + bo $ ~~ girls want...
So when bo $$ + ugly ~~ nobody want...
so like me... must become 和尚 better lo.. wahaha =D

World really so funny.. wahaha.. =D
reality!!

Result Outed!!

Result Outed!! but me... down already... it is because im get F!! im failed 1 subject.. need wait until May 2011 only can take the courses... really disappointed to myself.. haiz... im just hope pass... but at the end... gg already.. i really dont know how to face my family.. i dont know how to telling my family... im really sad, stress, down... suffer right now... after finished final year project.. still have 1 subject i need to worry and take at May 2011... really a bad news for me... convo.. wait until 2012 ba.. im really useless... 2month fight.. im lost... because im get failed... really no mood.. any plans also dont wish to join.... i really dont know how to telling my family... no face to face them... really gg already....
i dont want fail IP... please just let me pass... after i hand in.. must pass... study not suitable to me... im already try 120% best to exam.. but... haiz... im get fails... really useless....

down down down... how to continue fight final year project... haiz... =(

shi wei~~

~~ My little Life ~~~

My little life... like the huge road!! longest and longest to go... it is so hard for me to keep move forward... besides, the road if full of light and darkness!! When darkness coming.. the road become so hard to move forward and also always beat me down... im so wish to get up and fight back... but really so hard for me... i need some supporter and when im unhappy.. so someone beside me to telling me whats should i do.. but nobody will... therefore i have to be strong to stand again and fight it... however im sad, stress and tired... but i have no choice...
On the other hand, when the road is light, however it is easy for me to move forward... but it will have a lot "people behind me" attack me.. i will never know... but im try my best to treat everyone nicely.. but some people will feel you are so "假惺惺" !!! Besides that, when the sky is blue!! im always smile to face everything, no wonder it is darkness and light... but when the sky turning to dark... im become a little boy and full of sadness that inside my heart... nobody know about it... if you like me... will understand!! otherwise, you will never know about it... sadness not everyone will get it... 心碎的痛苦和心酸不是每个人可以感受到!!!



The road is longest and far, it is also including the uphill and downhill road.. life really similar with the road.... Our mood always have the up and down.... it is not a easy road to my life and keep moving it.... but im always telling myself... when im down, i have to keep telling my self... soon i will up again.. i have to smile and face everything to do my best!! because im understand nobody can help me.. only myself!! Smile always is what im always done it... =)



After that, when my life come to the turn left and right road.. i start fear and stress!! it is because i never know what new challenge and problem is right there to beat me.... im have no confident to turn left and right... the fear is always inside my heart... im so suffer to face the new problem... what can i do?? haiz...
难道一个人有话直说,就是没经大脑吗??就因为我拿出我的真心对待每一个人才会有话直说!! 可是偏偏我的有话直说伤害了你们和自己!! 所以我在改变成一个哑巴的人!! =)

我不相信友情是永久的 不过我还是依然的相信着. 我知道不是付出就会有回报. 你对他好不代表他也会对你好 这个世界就是那么残忍. 他们永远都不明白什么是"友谊". <-- 赞!!

我的生活!! 一个人!! =)

shi wei!!

FYP~~ haiz!!

Final year project really killing me.. haiz...im almost crazy ah... why so hard to do it... why why why~~~~~~~~~~
who can help me... im really need help...=(
sad~~~ haiz....

noob shi wei...
useless~~~

Midnight!! erm...

Why when come to midnight... im so hard to sleep!! in a silent night make me think a lot.. haiz.. im dont wish ah... i want sleep... haiz.. why want like that treat me.. erm... sad... besides, night so wish someone can chat with me.. haiz.. but impossible will have... erm... so wish to drink wine again.. so i might drunk and sleep.. but... cant.. later mum ask!! really sienz... want sleep also so hard.. haiz... why???
no care ah.. off and try to sleep 1st.. see how?? change tomorrow midnight also rush assignment... need more fast to rush my assignment.. go go go!!

shi wei!!
wan an

~~~ Alone At Home ~~~

Wahaha... alone.. can drink wine until wing wang wang... =D
erm.... assignment final year project why so complicated to me.. haiz... how come??
drunk jor rest.. awake jor can do assignment again.. but really dont know how to do.. haiz... really complicated.... =D
red wine.. Good... =D

shi wei~~

~~ No Wonder ~~

Erm... no wonder im so thin... im think few times... now a bit believe... it is because im just 1 meal 1 days... of course im thin ah....
how come 1 meal 1 days... haha xD
When im alone.. im always just at home didnt feel hungry and what.. want go out eat also lazy... because alone.. then long long become didnt hungry.. so become so thin.... haha... this recently really thin jor lo.. wahaha... =D
erm... anyway.... just post since assignment so tired.. wahaha =D

shi wei~~

~~~ Final Year Project ~~~

Erm... really hard for me to do it... haiz.. since it is not i wish to do... and this is what my lecturer wish... im really no ideas how to do it.. have to restart my mind and reading the journal article to do it... must fast already.. i have no enough time anymore... erm.... hope i get pass... thats enough to me...

what life is i wish... erm.... finding finding...
what life only suitable me???
which life should i choose to move forward....
after choose, it is suitable me??

"Think about this, who contributed everything to us to let us grow up?"

my frens,family,love!!! those also hurting me much and let me grow up!! but also let me lose the road... i really dont know which suitable me to choose it and im wont regret... however everything im choosing the road also didnt regret, no wonder it is bad or good... i will still continue to going on... but i dont wish my life are full of unhappy...im just wish to have a happy life... it is really suit to me??? or my life should become a bad boy only suitable me... erm....

why life should give up this and choose the another....
i wont regret.... but i dont want walk forward with full of unhappiness....
road road road... which really suitable me....

keep going on... maybe soon i will get the answer already...
when im changing again... i wish im get the actual answer of what i want...

shi wei...

"being unselfish can make your life more colourful" but my life become more worst.. nobody treasure it... everyone also just selfish with own good... why i cant be selfish... maybe i got.. myself didnt realize it... but im really always think of people 1st only myself...

"money is a good servant but not a good master" really money is important, but im still 脚踏实地 working to earn it... because im understand, the world never get 不劳而获 thoery!!

arrogant!! am i?? think so... be diam diam is much good.. =)
listening better than noisy.. =D

shi wei~~

~~One Day~~

One day nice!! ^^

Every time I look at the sky after the rain
I think of the crybaby I used to be
I was blindly chasing after someone's back
Saying "I want to be stronger"
Now faded into the wind is "thank you"
Am I getting stronger?
Since I haven't got an answer to that
I'll keep walking forward

The voice flowing inside of me
Always always supports me
Teasing rain will get in my way
Because I won't run away Oh

So let's go
Will never stop
Won't lose against the flow of time
I'll keep getting back up
Because I don't want to lose something precious

Like a bird flying in the sky
I'm searching for a tomorrow I can't see
Even if I'm scared while stumbling
My eyes won't drop at my feet

Share 其實..總是笑の人，真の很需要人疼

总有一些人..
他们看上去整天都很开心
嘻嘻哈哈的、没有烦恼
像个小孩

他们会说
玩是我最大的乐趣
我很喜欢玩
我什么都会玩

人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容
好多人都会羡慕他们
然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方
他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面
更没有能力一个人独处
因为当夜深人静的时候
他不知道一个人会发生什么事
坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴

没有人读的懂他们，想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤，然后自己对自己说：其实也没什么，命运吧！所以他们就整天逼自己笑，以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦！

他们貌似很坚强
因为在别人看来
他们什么事都能微笑着去面对
但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵
只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤

他们其实非常孤独
虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地
那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨！

他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着
期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的
希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己

即使别人小小的意见
也会另他们难过好久
他们真的真的很介意
介意自己不被人喜欢

因为..
他们总是为别人想的很多
对别人总是比对自己好
把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福
喜欢别人比喜欢自己多

他们总是那样
前一秒还伤心的流着泪
后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候
已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容

有人说他们是向日葵
是的..
他们在意的人就像是太阳
在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣
而太阳照不到的背面
那悲伤藏得那么好
不愿被看见

他们向往放纵自由的生活
却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着
很累很累.....
却仍是心甘情愿

离自己的梦境越来越来远
不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂
恐慌、不知所措
只有面对最依赖的人时
才会卸下盔甲
委屈的流下眼泪
感情得以小小宣泄后
偷偷抹掉眼泪
像个犯了错的孩子
无辜地向你认错
保证下次不这样了

其实他们真的不知道自己错在哪里
只知道你的不开心是因为多了一个他
他们害怕被遗弃
他们更害怕发现对于这个世界而言
他们是多余的

他们心里
笑就是开心
哭就是难过
接近就是喜欢
远离就是讨厌

但其实不是..
他们明白了
心好伤
眼泪就没忍住
哭过之后
笑笑得擦干眼泪
说没关系
我可以做的很好的

他们好像无所不能
好像总是不会有烦恼
好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决
总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前
笑嘻嘻的逗着笑

而面对自己的问题
他们却茫然无措
面对自己的悲伤
他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大

他们的想法非常简单
说出来的就是心里所想的
肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯
无心的话可能会引起别人的误解

所以..
请别记恨他们
他们从不愿伤害谁
小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久

他们其实非常单纯
甚至你曾经无心给的他一个微笑
他也会一辈子记得你的好
因此他们的世界观其实也很简单
他们很容易受蛊惑
请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情
因为一旦伤害了
那就将永远弥补不回来！

如果你身边有这种人请你给予他（她）那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀
让他（她）知道这个世界没有抛弃他们

真的..
他们已经再也受不起一点点的伤了

伤害他们这样纯粹易碎的心
难道你不会跟着一起心纠结到快要窒息吗?

倘若有这么一天
你..
真的..
只是一不小心..
闯入他们内心深处
看到了以前没看到的
感觉到了他们的感觉
你心里一定会难过的

可惜..
一切都来不及了

是你..
无意间
亲手掐灭他们原本就不温暖的心里仅存的那一点点希望的星火
他们真的彻底把自己封闭起来
他们选择沉默
选择一个人
选择对这个把他们遗忘的世间不给与任何喜或是悲

毕竟对于他们而言
感情
是多么奢侈的东西

那些无知的人
请不要再拿故作的幸福用作炫耀的资本
因为他们宁愿自己痛也不会让别人受伤
他们要的只是一个微笑
一句关心的话
仅此而已..........

really so truth... =)
make me feel touch!! =)

~~ finished final exam!!~~

finally I'm finished my final exam!!
hope I can get all pass!!
I don't wish fail!!
give me pass ya!!!=P

after this I have to concentrate my final year project and working!!
but my final project I really don't know how to do!! need request some senior to helping me already!!
really don't wish ma fan them!! but... no choice ah!!

must finish it before November 26!! final rush! go go go!! hope I can handle it!!
2nd time used iPhone to post blog!! wahaha...

so tired!! is time to nap!! wow, heavy raining!! suit me!! yeah!!
take care my dear frens!!! :) wish you all

shi wei!! slow face everytime!! each by each!!
tomorrow kuantuan!! haha:)

~~ Ella + HH birthday!! ~~

Yesterday are ella + hh birthday... erm... they are happy and crazy!! wow... wahaha... but before that, afternoon that time!! i went to my relative house eat asam laksa that time got chat a bit. then my dad suddenly pop up NS to telling me to go... im really stun... for me... i dont wish to going anymore.. it is waste my time to go already... because it is not helping me to learn any others things anymore... i really prefer going to work and learn much things that going there 3month learn nothing!! really waste my life time.. but my family... haiz... after this topic came out... it make me now more suffer.... sometime im really speechless and wish to go away the things.. but i cant.... i have no choice... i need to face it... who can really beside me support me... really suffering....

Ella birthday like wedding dinner.. wahaha.. =D
hh birthday like gathering... xD
anyway.. wish you all happy birthday...

shi wei (Suffering) =(

~~ 大家都变了 ~~

大家都变了,不再是我所认识的人了!!! erm... fine... continue back myself but diam diam dont care too much ah... however is too hard for me to do.. since is my frens.. erm... moody now.. where is my smile.. fake smile fake smile.. long jor ma because 习惯咯!! now really 习惯了!! haha...

like the drama... never see the real smile is smile inside the heart.. wahaha.. really sot...

got bath... then rest..

shi wei~~

~~ Haiz,keep cant sleep well ~~

Haiz,Why!! i cant sleep well.... =(
i just wish to have a nice sleep... why cant??? why dont give me??? haiz... dizzy!!
dont know how!! what should do... everyday also same... haiz...
I WANT HAVE A SWEET SLEEP!!! SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME!!! ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

sot jor.. erm... really wish to have a nice sleep.... =(

yesterday was my 2nd paper... erm.. it is quite well... but the next monday paper is killing me.. haiz...im dont wish to fail...im just want to pass!! please let me pass.... =(

have to revision and tonight got frens birthday party need attend.. So afternoon should have a nice revision 1st!! wahjahaha... just jia you go go go!!

oh ya, wish all my dear frens.. GOOD LUCK!!

take care!!
shi wei want fight again.. =(
scary!! really scary!! extreme scary!!

~~ Recently Slept not Well ~~

Erm.. yesterday my 1st final exam was down.. haiz... im need revision more for tomorrow final exam already... really so hard to exam... im really crazy...
besides, i can oi well this recently... haiz!! what is the main problem??? i really dont know... how to solve it... almost want crazy... but lucky this saturday got frens party... Therefore i wont so crazy with final exam ba.... i can relax 1 night.. then sunday have to continue fight again... it is because the last subject is more harder than the yesterday subject... omg... why like that... haiz.... tired everyday... cant oi well... WHY!!! tell me WHY!!!

need go revision again.. tata
good luck my dear frens~~

take care!!

shi wei

~~ Tomorrow Start Final Final Exam ~~

Tomorrow is my Final Final Exam... i have to revision well and fight with it.. try to get the great marks to myself... jia you jia you go go go...

take care all my frens!!
Good Luck to all UCSI frens as well!!

shi wei

~~ Exam Weeks ~~

Fianl exam weeks comes!! tomorrow i must hand in assignment + labtest + presentation... im still on doing... besides, i have to rush another assignment that need to submit at this 20 october - wednesday + its final exam!! after that, 22 october is my final exam again... really stress....
While come to 23 october...i will try my best to prepare as much as i can!! because night i need attend my frens birthday party... however i have final exam at 25 october... i will still attending and celebration with them... =)
nobody treat you good, nvm... im still need treat who im really care good thats enough... =D at least im never blame or give up my frens... =D but sometime heard somethings that i didnt know... still will make me sad... but whatever ah.... it is my life...i just accepted... =D
After that, after final exam...im still cant relax too much... it is because im still have the final year project need to finish it before 26 November... therefore im still need to rushing it... but according to my final year project...im not really know how to do it.. so im really stress with it.. dont know how... haiz!!! wait after final exam only things... but it look a bit late... dont care ah.. concentrate to my final exam 1st.... only think about it....

have to continue assignment 1st.. later 3pm need meeting!! dont know until what time... tonight need to drive night car again.. =)

take care all my frens!!
wish you all Good Luck!!

Shi wei!! stress~~~~~

~~~ Saturday @g@in!! ~~~

So fast... another saturday already.... Times was flying... but im was tired like crazy~~~ =D
while it is flying... im busy assignment and also flying with assignment... assignment really make me crazy.... besides, those lecturer keep given assignment last mins... never think at our side.... somemore telling us... those assignment just very easy... but compared to us... it is hard!!! if you are lecturer also feel hard with the assignment.. then for students are extreme hard... therefore please dont use the words the assignment just simple... it is not a good words.... im not yet prepare revision... because still rushing assignment.. really no ideas ah.... when got this type of lecturer.... studies also cant learn what... learn nothing only...
last night friday... o.O yam cha until 1am... lolz... so long never relax until so happy.. wahaha.. yam cha with loo chinn,hh,sf,by!! talk a lot funny things... lolz.. really relax.. thanks to my frens.. ^^
just go hard with my assignment and exam... after 25 October... i want super relax entertainment!! because im really so long never have entertainment already.. but hope so got people if free accompany me... otherwise also no used... xD
if really nobody free.... decide going back hometown better than at here.. =D

OK!! stop here 1st.. it is time to go and do the assignment... =D

take care all my frens... GOod luck also!!

shi wei!! =D

~~ So late no oi yet!! iPhone post blog ~~

This recently tired until when want oi that time also can't oi!! Really so weird!! Besides, my body so easy get small flu and whatever!!Really felt uncomfortable!! Maybe really start oi or i'm too tired and stress!! Never take a good rest!! Therefore now the health become so weak already!! iPhone wrote blog can't fast that using keyboard typing lo!! Lol....

Don't know myself thinking what now!!! Lol...
But I have to face it!! Happy life is just based on myself!!
I will found it!!:)

Ok ah!! Try to oi!! Tata
take care all my dear frens!! :D
good luck!!

Shiwei
posted by iPhone!!
2.23am..... =P

~~ A Great Talk ~~

Yesterday after end class, im went to chi hui tang for listening Teacher lai had a small talk about 生存,生活,生命!!成功快乐之素!!
生存 --> 身体,精神,知趣 --> 生活 --> 静心,觉知,智慧 --> 生命
For Survival
need health, energy, knowledge
Energy of 亲情,友情,爱情, and must have 热情,交情,长情 --> 富!!
knowledge is based on school life, society life, house life.
For Live
need Meditation, awareness, wisdom to Life!! =D
In between the talks, a lot example make me so touch!! It is because really truth...
亲情,友情,爱情 support really so important!!! but everyone also got own opinion in everything... just my self 热情,交情,长情 to others is what im always do... no need 回报!!
What im do is the best then im no need to worry what!! how people want treat back you is depending on them... =)
BEEN a EQ people!! =)

Happy really is my life...
when can find back my happy life!! miss it... faster back.. my happy life!!
So im must use of it life then i will happy back.. =D

Im always remind myself to smile and face everything is RIGHT.. no wrong!!
Dont said im 假惺惺!! because this is my way to make myself happy.. not for you all!!
Not believe me... just go away... im never force you.. =D

What im do really 对的天地良心!! =) 问心无愧!! =D

later around 3something have to be my mum "ah mam" to fetch her here and there!! wahaha.. yeah... can have FREE food today.. =P
my dad and sister went to genting.. so only me and mum go "chan" table leg!! =P

anyway, i have to continue my assignment... =D
tata
take care all my frens!! ^^

shi wei~~ =D

~~ Today Life's... T.T ~~

Today early morning wake up and going to uni start UNIVERSITY life... Zzzz
8am classes until 11am... then im stay back and doing the Object Oriented Method Assignment!! it is hard to solve the questions... but lecturer told me is easy only... T.T

once im doing.... i saw Shin wen and she came to sit beside me chit chat with me a while only going back home... wahaha... really miss secondary life... no stress and can have a lot of frens around to chit chat and have fun... really love it... but now... lol.... doing what also alone... =D

around 12something... im very hungry... but not want eat alone.... suddenly.. im saw one of my course mate at cafeteria there... then im called her and asked why you are here... she told me waiting to meet up with supervisor... then im asking what time... after that, i going out order food and sit with her to take my lunch + breakfast....

So so... continue to my assignment around 1something... Around 5...im already cant tahan anymore and fall asleep at there... When almost 6pm classes... im start feel weird... It is because around 6pm also not much students come to the classes... and 1 of my frens saw another fren MSN and telling him class cancel... we only knew it and im really almost crazy.... but lucky im didnt white white wait at uni today... erm...
HOpe tomorrow dont cancel again..i will kill people.. lolz~~~~

When im arrived my house, im saw my BONUSLINK new card is arrived!!! just a little small things that bring back my mood... really thanks to BONUSLINK...=P

need rest 1st... later only continue assignment...
take care all my frens!!
good luck to you all!!!

shi wei!! =D

~~ A new LCD 23' ~~

o.O... a new LCD monitor 23' had in front on me.. wahaha... yesterday night going to take it and also paid it... im really not use of it.. it is because too big?? xD
anyway.... this is what my sister wish.. so get it already.... she so happy with it... wahaha...

Today classes so long really crazy... haiz... tired sei me... besides, today i have a presentation... and it is quite ok for my presentation... why the assignment so harder... i really dont know how to solve it... OMG~~~

OMG OMG OMG~~~~ Final exam around the corner... after next week... it is already final exam week... therefore next week is last classes and need hand in all assignment... but im still not finish all ~~~~ really cham... dont know how to solve... how finish!! crazy soon!!!

ah~~~~~~~~~~~~so hungry... go dinner 1st... share next time...

tata
take care my frens~~~ good luck to you all!! =D

Hungry Shi Wei.. =P
=.=

~~ Last night ~~

Last night drink with some frens... quite funny.. because of JULIO so we all going there and have a drink at station1 and help fren to support him...=P
really make me feel relax... however is just a moment.. but really happy.. so today must hardworking to do my assignments and everything lo... =D
After watching resident evil!! until now also didnt watch movie at cinema... because dont have nice or what? dont know.. wahaha.. also is good things.. i can save a lot money.. no need keep waste on such entertainment that wasting money... wahaha =D
What should do, and what should complete early must state it later... keep said will do... but didnt action.. at the end, just end out nothing.. can like that anymore.. must said jor then do dou...=D
wahahaha... ok ah...

GO DO 1st... i no want just said... =D
Find back myself... go go go!!

Shi wei..
take care all my frens... =)
good luck to you all!!

Late post of myself!! =P

Aug 3 that time, im wrote this at iphone notes!!
一个人没什么大不了!!
不要期望朋友会带来什么!!
最重要是自己要生活的快乐!!
不要理会别人的看法和意见!!
其实我再也没有勇气去期望什么了!!
我只要开开心心的度过我的一切!!

and this is 9 Aug!!
When a person tired!!
Really stressful.. Hmmm...
Today my bf asked me to find another half to accompany me!!
I'm didnt said what!! Hmmmm...
Actually i wish!! But i'm not brave at all... I'm really scare!!
I'm so suffer already while study, i don't want because of that thing to make me more suffer!! I'm need support not bring me more suffer!!
Haih!! I'm always less self-confident.....
I'm saw people can earn many $$ by own and study also get good results!!
I'm really felt myself useless!! I didn't know what i'm doing in my life!!
Stupid wei can't stand strong!! Who can helps me?? Haih....

Over 2month things.... xD

Shi wei~~

Saturday classes!! Zzzz

Ah...saturday classes really sienz... even i do assignment also wont so bored... class... then become very bored jor.. omg... i not want saturday classes... but always got saturday classes... really crazy... faint faint faint.... =(

Assignment +++ again... omg... when i can do my Individual final project... im not enough time to do jor.. need more rushing liao... later cant show something to supervisor then cham liao... give supervisor killing me... =(

rush rush rush.... oktober right now.. final exam is around the corner as well... wah... faint lo... everything is near by... stress sei me jor... besides, must work as well... because rest can keep me stress away... so wont so suffer... =D
no entertainment, then work lo... the only way relax... wahaha.. =D

tomorrow and later night need rush tutorials + assignment 1st... next week tuesday got works... so must finish fast... 2week to go.. final exam coming... i have to start revision as well...

shi wei jia you jia you go go go!!
good luck to myself.. =)

take care!! good luck all my frens... ^^

shiwei~~~

~~ Recently keep on Sick!! ~~

Recently my antibody really weak... keep on sick... red eye, cough, no more voice.... omg.... and get my mum "gam cham" until 999~~~ really dont know how??? im also got keep myself drink a lot water... but also same.. sad...i also dont know how... haiz... just drink more and more water lo... dont care it anymore ah... =) lucky my voice back... can talk a little big right now... woo hoo~~~ =D
shu shu~~~~, sick fast fast go away... dont keep 1 by 1 to line up and meet me... ><
i need healthy body to do assignments, courseworks, and working!!! so please fast fast go away....

3weeks to go,my final exam is around the corner.... i need to finish my assignments and courseworks as soon as possible... besides, i still have final year project need to do... therefore, confident and health please come back find me!!! ok ok?? haha sot jor... talk apa dekat sini!! Zzzzz

stress really stress.... everything around the corner... i really need a best health to fight everything... otherwise... i will faint down... later need works jor.. go prepare 1st... and after work, night 6pm classes... really za dao.... 6pm only classes... really gik si me... ><

tata
take care my dear frens... ^^
wish you all always smile... =)

shi wei =$

~~ Work + assignment!! ~~

this week almost crazy.. work and rush assignment... super duper tired... i need to finish all assignment as soon as possible jor.. sat,sun and mon 3days, but sun got camp site visit... it is i need to spam sometime to go or stay at home continue rushing.. im scared not enough time for me to rushing only... ah.... almost sot... ><
im here wrote my blog now.. lolz... relax should have.. =P how le how le.. omg.... fast fast decide lo.... >< go or not go...
Yesterday so shock to get a news of Our UCSI University chairman Peter Ng father is pass away... so we all get a holidays on monday as respect of him. =)
Bless you!! =)

this kind of life really tired... but at least im happy... i wont think so much!!! just go ahead to my life.... =)

shi wei...
continue my assignments + later class... >< sienz....
take care all my frens... ^^

~~ Successful Chi Hui Tang Events ~~

Woo hoo~~ finished chi hui tang events... and it is so successful~~~ ^^
bring a lot fun and happiness to people... wahahaha =D
however im really tired!! but it is 值得!! =D
Continuous week i need to rush my assignment!! hope i can handle it as soon as possible... =D this kind of life really happy... i wont think so much!! =D
Volunteer works really bring me happy alot... =D
the next i need start do well with my assignment... just try my best!! hehe~~~
go go go.... fight fight fight~~~ =D
so fast the october is around the corner.... really need more rushing my assignment.... besides, still need take time to have a charity meeting and works... so i can really wont think so much... =D
I dont want let my self so free.... i will crazy(think too much)!! =D
waiting chi hui tang events photos... =D

rest 1st....
tomorrow monday... =D

shi wei

~~ Im love busy life ~~

im love busy life rather than home alone life... wahahaha xD
people love free life... i not really like... because im will think alot and feel lonely... i prefer busy life... busy wont think so much and feel happy... =D however is alone... =)

this week need rush so many assignment and chi hui tang things... really super busy.. no choice... just try my best to settle everything... ^^
besides, still need arrange time to works.. xD

works + studies + charity works... woo hoo~~~ =D

try control self dont think so much... just go try my best!!
no wonder is study or work or charity work.... just go ahead!! =)

shi wei go go go... tired.. today half day at chi hui tang helps~~ XD
tata.... tomorrow 8am classes... need rest soon~~ =)

take care all my dear frens~~ ^^
wish you all good luck~~ =)

shi wei!!

~~ eye still blur ~~

wah, today classes keep face the laptop... after that, my eye keep on blur and blur... haiz... if like this.. how can i face the laptop to do coding and everything?? haiz... really dont know how..

besides, i got a lot programming codes need start to do right now... it is because a lot assignment im been individual... too much too much coding... im just a stupid programmer... cant handle it and do it so fast.... i need a lot things to do research and slow coding only can complete it.. haiz.. but my eye... how?? nobody will help me... only myself to settle it.. really suffer and stress.... last sem also feel myself cant do it... because for me really hard... im just a stupid programmer... =(

shi wei... dont know how... haiz~~

look at each coursemate.. all also so pro with IT... im just such a newbie inside them... i studies so hard..also not really can handle each programming language... haiz.. i really dont know how...

Dont always compared to them... but i cant... while im face with them...felt myself really useless~~~

shiwei

Red eye fast fast away

Red eye fast fast away please.. dont keep with me... thanks for coming.. and thanks for away.. "^^"

i need start to fight already... therefore thanks to going away ya.. "=D"

have to take times and start prepare everything.. cant keep blur... eye blur.. me blur!!

when eye clear.. everything will be fine... ??? hope so..

shi wei go go go!!

take care all my frens~~ "=)"

~~ A weird dream ~~

this recently dont know what wrong... why keep got a weird dreams!! erm...

just dont care it so much.... i think will be alright...

my road need how to continue to walk through really blur....

i start panic with the courses of im studies... is look alike im dont even get understand all tools of the programming... im dont have even expert 1 programming...what should i do??? all my coursemate also got own expert programming..some dont even 1..is many.. me!! what also dont have... really no ideas what im doing... haiz... really feels myself is so so stupid... my life only got work harder!!!

if really didnt get many $$ then i will choose my road to just super simply life.. just earn and enough use.. then wont think any goals anymore.. because it is too difficult for me(stupid) people to archive it...

work harder to get the road clear,,, dont blur like this... really blur...erm...

shiwei blur~~

~~ 对我而言 ~~

对我而言 ;

我的前路开始像我的眼睛一样了!!模糊了!!

我真的不知该怎么办好!!!

模糊的路应该要怎样的走下去呢!!!

haiz~~~

shiwei 的眼睛模糊了!!

~~ not recovery red eye ~~

omg... not yet recovery... doctor said more serious.... haiz.. the 1st doctor really playing me.. said what also can eat.. now this doctor said what also cant eat... erm... next time really need find expert doctor much better already... xD

take care all my frens!! ^^

shi wei~~

~~ 1weeks already!! ~~

Omg!!!my red eye already 1weeks.. im rest so well... still the same.. didnt recovery much.. please ah.... recovery as soon as possible.. i need start my study already... T.T

haiz.... so pity...really prefer sick also not want red eye... is more suffer than sick... ish!! HELP!!

im keep pray to recovery soon... xD lol

hope will dream come true... ok ah!!

end up here!!

tata

mu liang chi bei!! xD

Shi wei red eye... T.T

~~ Red eye bully me!! =( ~~

Give red eye bullying me.. really pity.. haiz.. dont know how ??? so suffer.. pain...

leave alone please.. i prefer alone ah... i dont know painful... =(

cant focus to do a things... even drive also so suffer... how to going to uni?? haiz... =(

shi wei.... =(

~~ September New Short Sem ~~

This is my final sem of study. i have to really studies nicely to get all Pass!! =>

after that, is it time to walk in the more reality world..... nothing is impossible....

I'm possible.... jia you jia you.. go go go!! =D

Im here to wish all my frens... all the best... Good Luck~~ =)

shi wei...

**eye so red? sick jor? =( ~~

~~ Results Out!! wow ~~

Wahaha.. im so happy... results out... really so happy.. so wish to have a drink... but nobody date.. just at my room watch drama... waahahaha.... next sem i more stress... because is my last sem already... jia you go go go!! =D

shi wei!! ^^

~~ A touch celebration?? ~~

Touch celebration... wahaha... when i will have a touch birthday celebration??? wahaha... just inside my dream... so is time to dream... =D

keep telling self... dont jealous..

because my life is like that.... must accept it... but still 很不甘心!!

stupid shi wei

~~~ New Short Sem!! ~~~

So fast end of ogos... and my new short sem is around the corner already.. how should i start my Ip B and my preparation for fighting on the next 1month++

It is beacause... 1 setpember start and 18 october my final exam begins..... i think is my worst busy month in setp and oct already... wahaha... i just wish i get passed all subjects... then come out working life... no choice... im poor and need start earn money already... =)

however im understand works are not easy... but compare with study.... myself feels study more cham than works... when im study... really alot pressure... im really dont want my family get suffer in my study fees anymore... i need faster finish it as soon as possible and start working...

When start working, if hard also nvm... im wont care... at least i will more happy than study.... the pressure of works sure have. but compare to family suffer... im rather than works pressure... =D

I need start My IP B and fight for the next sem already.. Wish myself Good Luck in last sem. Jia You!! =)

Shi Wei~~~

Wish all my dear frens~~~ =)

~~ Malacca Trips!! 22 & 23 ~~

~~ Malacca Trips!! 22 & 23 ~~

woo hoo... thanks so much!! im very happy have this trips on this sem~~ xD

thanks alyse,ivan,boon,guek,mei,ling ling, jason, nicole and thomas... wahaha XD

snaps jor many pictures and also ate jor many food!! woo hoo... my favour.. wahaha XD

^^

dont know type what.. xD

stop here!! ^^

How is your life??

‎~~ Where you always hanging around? UNI and HOME!!

who always find you?? "zou gong"!!

who always accompany me?? My laptop!!

what will i do when boring??watch One piece!!

thats my life!! =D ~~

How is your life?? keep acc frens hanging here and there???

Where place i went before?? home and uni..

keep heard or saw frens.. hanging to

i-city?? what lai de??

bukit tinggi?? can eat??

many more... im jealous.. yap..seriously.. im jealous.. jealous you have so many good frens.. and start boycott me..

haha... anyway...

im enjoy my life as well... tata

take care.. my dear frens..

shi wei!!

Finally holidays 1weeks

finally im finished all things and the project as well...now so sleepy.. is time for me to oi oi lo...

this 1weeks holidays hope i can get enjoy.. are not just like normal.. sit at home..dream.. ><

tata...take care all dear frens... =)

sleepy shi wei... Zzzz

~~ Tomorrow is my dead days!! ~~

So fast... 19 ogos... that means tomorrow is my dead day already lo.. erm.... really stress and scare with the exam... because of the lecturer... therefore.. it make me more scare about it... i really dont know how to face my family... if i really get unwell result... haiz.... im really stupid + useless... haiz... When think back i have a sienz groupmate to do the assignment... more sienz... Zzzz

Anyway... need fast fast revision again... try my best tomorrow.. tata...

take care!! =)

stupid + useless shi wei!!

~~ Exam around the corner ~~

Exam around the corner... my revision is just crazy... and the stupid project.. haiz.. really no idea... and my 3 groupmate is pro on pushing me to finish it early... really sienz to team with them( black guys) suck!! =,= Im always care on people... but who will always come to care me le... nobody.. wahaha...

stressful always keep inside myself... the painful as well...

thats day my bf only telling me... got things must said out.... chat jor many things.... he is my best best bro... but not always free!! and im understand him as well....

sometime saw old frens got another new frens jor then least out with me liao... so jealous... they can have a lot new frens in uni life... i dont have the good fate like them... can meet up so much good and funny frens in uni life... erm....

Everyone birthday, im plan nicely... came to my birthday... like nothing.. however im understand... but really feel so sad as well... haha.... im always hope i can have a really full of fun celebration... haha.. this will never come true... =)

everyone got own new frens and life already.... who am i wor... im just a passed frens and bro.. xD

today really raining whole days and now really feels so cold... im stressful until cried... really stupid... haha... stupid wei...

Study = x

Life = x

Frens = x

nothing in my life is = 0

all just x x x... xD

tired... go revision 1st..

stop here.... tata

bless my all frens... wish you all more happy... take care...

*so wish to have a place nobody know me and start a new life.... *

~~ Busy life is good for me!! ~~

I prefer busy life...i no want keep alone..i will think much and sadness keep came out... somemore when saw people so sweet... im might jealous until self sad... haiz.. really sot zai.. xD

haiz... back to assignment... really sienz...i really hate same group with black guys... almost i do the all things with my own!! really suffer... haiz... somemore this assignment really harder... i dont really know how to do it well... cham liao... haiz.... im hate it....

damn DR.O also.... haiz.... T.T

sad sad sad~~~

Shi wei

~~ Stressful... im really tired!! ~~

Stressful... im really tired... haiz... where can get support?? erm... tired until want die.. haiz... really feels myself so useless.. haiz... im always never have confident.. haiz.... what can i do.. ah~~~ i really dont know what can i do... stupid wei really tired!!

Stupid Shi Wei

~~ Stress ~~~~~~~~~~`

Im very stress ah... cant tahan... really suffer.. haiz...

i know i cant worry must try best... but.. haiz... who ask me so noob + stupid.. haiz...

i cant do well in my year3 study.. really difficult to me... haiz...

how to release those stress give self concentrate back ah... really no idea... sad~~

haiz~~~

Stupid Noob Shi wei~~~

DOWN~~~~

~~ Birthday Celebration? ~~

erm.... this is my sister bought me de new cloth.. =D

wahaha... anyway.. my celebration?? 31 july?? erm... going out with my bf..SAM.. =D

early morning fetch fren bubuling to take LRT... after that, going to sam house leppak.. xD around 1 we go lunch + bought bbq food for night.. then fetch his gf to briekfield!!

Soon we at midvalley watch movie with his frens together... =D

So on we going to fetch his gf sister and his gf... drive to sunway to drop his gf sister... =D

ran back sungai long prepare bbq...

this year i get birthday cake!! haha... quite fun.. better than nothing..=) thanks all frens wish too... really thanks...

Then just now have dinner with my family.. this is 1st time my family said want celebrate birthday with me and sister... =D

no matter how.. this year birthday i just didnt expected what.. so is happy... =D

thanks all!! =)

All the best ya.. my dear frens.. =)

Shiwei

~~ July ~~

End of july is around the conner!! really fast.. my life is passed half years already.. damn fast!! cant believe!! erm.. anyway, i have to faster finish up my studies.. so i can come out works and no need so stress... while im working.. just worried how to earn many money.. other things.. no need think so much... especially "情"... haha xD friendship i really never think what expected anymore... haha... i just enjoy my life... and im understand many things since this years... i will keep grow grow to learn more things... reality is a horrible things in this world... haha~~~ =D

Everyone also is like that, just depending on which sides are their reality!! =D

erm.... Every years im expected too high.. at the end.. self sad.. so now im already never expect what will they do to me... =)

im just go enjoy myself also very enough already... =)

My birthday??? i got birthday meh?? wahaha.. never know!! erm... since all so poor.. no need so "委屈" help me celebration... celebrated jor i also like eating "bone" really make me more sienz... for me... when people said share or what else... cant de cant.. dont ask how much... we all know.. talk $$ hurt the relationship... so i also no want get hurt or what else... enough hurt already... haha =P

erm... i will not show my birthday at every place it because im not want let people know.. haha... for me.. a heart wish is better than reminder wish.. haha.. =P

sot sot wei...

after july.. is my more tough and stressful life... i have to really fight until i finish my last sem.. so i can really enjoying my life more... so jia you ya.. shi wei.. believe self can do it.. =) no wonder how... do the best to archive my studies 1st.. =D

birthday is what?? can eat?? wahaha... nothing specially for me.. just a days for me to sleepy.. i dont wish got $$ problem at that days.. really annoying.. =)

shi wei... =]

Rearrange my times!!

Rearrange my times to get ready to fight another things. I will never know what will happening tomorrow.. but i have to done what should i do right today... =) just go ahead.. tired just tired.. dont care... try as soon as possible to finished my study faster that is the good way for me... =)

Blind stress will never know... who will know.. nobody... hmmm.... my life becomes more stress and tough!! haha... but just do it.... nothing to worry.. but really worry.. haiz.... no choice.. im noob + stupid.. erm...

I just go to learn what ever i can learn.. go go go...

erm... need bussy liao... post next time.. =)

~~~ OMG!!Library is so cold today!! ~~~

Walau.. .why today UCSI library is so cold.. im almost get freeze... erm.... somemore the internet really suck.. only can blog... cant FB... but also good ah.. i can study my NSD and IS.. really sienz lo.. the NSD and IS>..<>anyway... cold cold cold... i should not sit here next time.. xD

is time to continue my study.. tata...

take care my dear frens...=)

all the best~~~

SHi Wei freezing... =D....

~~转~~ 失恋没什么大不了的!! =)

世上每一个人，差不多都会在年轻的时候有过失恋经验。这经验——失恋的苦恼和烦闷，一直要到真正长大后，和真正的爱人结了婚，才能遗忘。正如有人感叹的“衣带渐宽终不悔，为伊消得人憔悴”是徒劳的，爱情总是有心栽花花不发，无心插柳柳成荫的。爱情总是造物弄人，往往有心栽花的是你自己喜欢的，而无心插柳的是你不喜欢的。生命中总有一道帘栊，隔绝着那些深深相爱的人。一个人总希望自己的恋人能静静听自己吹奏快乐与忧伤的旋律，再把掌声与悲喜远远地传递，然而往往会出现对方不愿与自己合奏的情形，这样就会造成失恋。

　　这个多情的世界变化太快，有时会让人回不过神来，透不过气来，在这种情况下被迫出局，是很平常的一件事。但失恋不可怕，受伤害也不可怕，可怕的是自己内心美好的信念发生动摇，有一首歌唱道：“恋爱中，有人被打倒，有人会长大。”说的就是对待失恋的态度：有的人沉迷伤痛，有的人积累经验。那个人的成长不是伴随着磕磕碰碰，哪有轻而易举便成功的，从容对待吧。

　　从某种意义上说，人的一生之中，失恋似乎是必须有的一桩好事，因为他（她）从此可以得到更丰富的人生经验。由于失恋的刺激，增加了他工作的努力，世上有许多伟大的事业和工作，都是因为失恋的刺激而成功的。如歌德之所以能写出《少年维特之烦恼》，就缘自失恋。再则，有了失恋的经验和刺激，还可从友谊方面去寻找新的快乐方法，结下新的友谊；或者从现实或书本中研究人性；或者使你自己成为更好更有价值的一个人，去选择一个比第一个更好更有价值的情人。

　　恋爱时，爱情是虚幻的；得到时，爱情是甜美的；回想时，爱情只有苦涩；心碎时，爱情总是无奈地散落一地。爱情的付出和收获是不成比例的，不会像耕田种菜那样，有一分付出就有一分收获。倒像碰到不好的年成，不是旱灾就是水灾，付出如同耕耘，收获好比那劫后余生的种子。爱情像个迷宫，进去很容易，出来时难免会遍体鳞伤。

　　或许，得不到的东西才是最宝贵的。假设都是有情人终成眷属的话，那么，梁祝、牛郎织女、罗密欧与朱丽叶他们凄美的爱情故事就不会流传至今了。

　　但也有许多青年男女，一经被爱人遗弃之后，悲哀和失望就将他们引上自杀或疯狂之路。至于那些没有自杀勇气者，也抱恨终身：虽然活着，但已经毫无生气，好像是半死的人，世上没有什么东西能引起他们的兴趣，能激励他们好好生活下去。他们十分伤心，像祥林嫂那样喋喋不休地向人哭诉，对方为什么不要自己，是自己做错了什么，还是自己不够好？在失恋的日子里他们以泪洗面，依然痴情地爱着对方，不愿意失去对方——这个曾经信誓旦旦要和自己比翼双飞的恋人。他们重温当初的情景心如刀绞，痛哭失声。一位失恋的少女曾经痛哭流涕地说：“失恋就像一把把锐利无比的刀，刀刀割痛我业已伤痕累累的心。那段日子我就要不行了，我的心已让他的逃遁割成了一块破布，在猎猎北风中痛得吱吱溜溜而无以言说。”

　　这些态度和做法都是不对的，要知道“强扭的瓜不甜”，对方不情愿，即使勉强结合，也不会甜蜜，更不会幸福。一个木匠造一手好门，他费了很长时间给自己家造了一个门。他想这门用料实在，做工精良，一定会经久耐用。后来，门上的钉子锈了，掉下一块板，木匠找出一个钉子补上，门又完好如初。后来又掉下一颗钉子，木匠就又换上一颗钉子……若干年后，这个门虽然无数次破损，但经过木匠的精心修理，仍坚固耐用。木匠甚是自豪，多亏有了这门手艺，不然门早就坏了。

　　不久，邻居买了一扇好门，样式新颖、质地优良，木匠看看自己家的门却是又老又破，长满了补丁。

　　爱情就是这样，失恋了，即使你费了天大的劲，修补好了，也只能是一扇旧门，远不如一扇新门。当一个人不爱你要离开你时，你要问自己还爱不爱他，如果你也不爱他了，千万别为了可怜的自尊而不肯离开；如果你还爱他，就应该希望他过得幸福快乐，希望他能跟真正爱的人在一起，而不应去阻止。

　　沉浸在失恋的痛苦之中无法自拔的人，多是太好强者，他们总要赢，害怕输，他们有很强的自尊心，但是承受挫折的能力却很差，因此，感情上受伤成了他们逃避生活的一个借口。

　　分手一定有它的内在原因。对方的移情别恋像发烧一样常常只是一种表象，真正的病毒已侵蚀了爱情的肌理。爱情良民都是善于忍耐的，但到了忍无可忍时，还是会义无反顾地离开的。所以在分手时一定不要急着谴责先说再见的人。没有人是故意要变心的，他爱你的时候是真的爱你，可是他不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，他爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你，同样的，他不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你。

　　那么应该怎样来安排失恋后的生活呢？第一件重要的事，你必须彻底研究一下你被情人抛弃的原因。失恋可能是你没有在合适的时间遇到合适的人，也可能是你运气不好，遇人不淑，可是这里面还有一点是你自己的问题，就是你的眼力。要知道恋爱光有一颗渴望纯情浪漫的心还不够，还必须学会识人。你想想看，你的情人是否超过了你自己？你的情人是否另有目的和欲望？在你这方面，你是否和你的情人有不愉快、不合作的行为?你的情人是否因为你要求过分，无法应付，才做你自己懒得做或不敢做的事的?这些问题，你必须仔细加以思考和回答，才能明白失败之所在，并作为后来应吸取的教训。

　　明白了失恋的原因，第二件要做的事，便是去另找一个爱人。眼泪是会蒙蔽一个人的观察力的，而自责和悔恨则会耗费你很多本可以用到别的更有价值的工作和事业上去的精力。因此，失恋了，不要流泪，不必自责和悔恨，重新开始就是了。利用过去的经验和教训，去好好选择第二个满意的情人吧！正如古人所说的：“十步之内，必有芳草。”不用担心，天涯何处无芳草。只是无论如何，你一定要切记：决不可在选择第二个情人的时候，故意选与抛弃你的人相像的人。爱情系统一旦出了故障，我们无法怨天尤人，只有痛定思痛地查找短路，更换元件，改善各种环境和条件。

　　人类社会是由男女两性组成的。就解剖学和心理学来说，大多数的男女都能互相恋爱，只要稍有良心和勇气，就可彼此结成美满的婚姻。即使事前并未有过恋爱，用一种随机的方法来择配，结果那不愉快的婚姻，也不会比现在更多。

　　这是什么意思呢？简单地说，就是证明结婚和恋爱并非上天注定的，那些相信世上只有一个异性可以和他（她）相爱，并可以结婚的人，是十分荒谬可笑的。不要相信言情剧编造的种种爱情神话，剧中那些为爱而生，为爱而死，为爱疯狂的男女是不食人间烟火的“神仙”。它们提供给人们的是对爱情的幻想，这种幻想看上去很玄妙，实际上只是一场虚幻的假设，就像精神鸦片一样，给予忙碌的都市男女一点精神安慰和寄托。一个男子十分爱他的妻子，两人相敬如宾，但也许他和遇到的其他二十几个女子之中的任何一人结婚，结果都会像现在一样快乐和幸福。一对十分恩爱的夫妻因故失偶后，再婚了，即使对方是一个性格、思想都与前夫或前妻完全不同的人，也能得到同样的愉快和幸福。

　　再比如有些男女，当刚被自己所爱的人抛弃时，感到悲痛欲绝，精神差点崩溃，甚至以为自己会被这份感情折磨到老，沉淀为生命中无法触碰的隐痛，可是等到悲哀渐渐消失后，他们又和别的人恋爱起来，而且这次尝试，居然得到了成功。因为时间就像一把刷子，一遍遍冲刷着记忆，直至模糊。

经过一些事 看清所谓的情义 以后大概我就不会相信什么友情 爱情 我不明白你 如果你看我是同学那么 为什么你干什么事情都要叫上我 如果你看我是朋友 为什么在我快要不行的时候连句问候都没有 难道真如我所想 你看我只是一个在寂寞时能解闷的玩偶？

友谊也让我受够了 我没有失去一切 因为我从未拥有!! 一个人就一个人吧 人总要学着自己长大 可把你忘掉谈何容易 你在未来光影前 我在原地卑微后 我总把你们对我的漠然 想象成情非得已 是外界的逼迫 而非自己内心所想 但 恐怕我想要的一切都不会成真 就这样孤单一辈子!!

我的生活才刚刚开始，因为我开始想要爱自己了。=]

~~~ A news Challenge is coming!! ~~~

A news challenge is coming liao... is time to faint and more stress~~
the pretty is because dont have own family fully support really more stressful.. haiz.. dont care ah... at least im try all my best to do the things and study... nothing to regret.. hehe...
Just go ahead... aca aca fighting ah... go go go ale ale ale.... wahaha =D
must jia jia you you liao ah~~~~~~~~~~~~ ah~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
beside, next sem my time table is killing me... 3days until 8pm.. walau... when all subject im choosing is approved.. then really 3days until8pm lo.. haha.. however will very tired.. but nvm... it is just 2month.. im sure i can handle it.. wahaha =D
JIA YOU~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

SHI WEI ~~ =)

~~~ Raining NIght ~~~

Raining night... haiz...
it bring me back to cold night... feels so .... haha...
try dont think ah.. just go oi oi lo...
cold then cold ah... life is like that.. no choice.. have to face it... just face it.. =D shi wei can do it... no matter how sad,hurt,hard and pain.... =D
jia you jia you go go go!! =)
take care all frens..
bless you all...
wan an
dont get cold at night while oi oi.. =D
shi wei~~ =D

~~~ Nobody know!! ~~~

Suddenly feels nobody know im actually really lonely.. wahaha.. =D
around my frens also got own news best frens.. what i have.. just still the same.. wahaha.. never change...but is nvm... my smile bring me back to normal already.. haha... =D only i find them,they only will contact me... lolz... whatever ah...
seriously last time im already give up everything..just my studies im not.. so just go ahead on studies lo.. no need think too much.. =)
take care all dear frens.. All the best.. =)
Lonely Shi wei nobody know..=P

Bleach nobody know <-- nice songs.. =D

~~ World Cup Ended!! ~~

World cup ended... wahaha.. finally SPAIN get the 2010 world cup!!! i watched final at Forum19 with big gang frens... really fun right there.. .but im damn tired.. lolz.... congrats to SPAIN again... hehe... =) Germany need more hardworking on 2014 match lo.. wahaha =P

After WC need start busy my assignment again.. haiz... really headache killing me jor... Especially my IP B... haiz.... damn worried... T.T

Hope i really can do well...so just go ahead... jia you!! ^^

Wish all my frens good luck too.. all the best~~ =)

~~~ JailBreak!! ~~~

Wahaha... yesterday afternoon i going to meet guek them to helps and teach me sync,jailbreak.. but at the same time they jailbreak..told me hang or bla bla bla... im totally stun and blur~~ because i also dont know what happening.. wahaha... at the end they solve the problem... Really need thanks to Ah guek because keep ma fan him...so sorry ya.. wahaha... ^^ i will keep learning it.. dont worry !! ^^ erm.. anyway... Study still going on.. Moodle,fuzzy logic,mid term exam, presentation , IP2
Wish all my frens all the best!! ^^
Shi Wei

~~~ Iphone 4gs?? ~~~

Erm... this recently really enjoy my life,especially study..wahaha.. however the lecturer so "black orang zhang" but ok ok lo... wahaha.. presentation then presentation ah.. so what... =P bleh~~~~~~~~~~~

Today 7 july 2010... im going to time square get my last phone and it is iphone3gs.. wahaha... i wont change my phone anymore.. =) wahahaha... but need to ins. it every month... since my old phone already GG so no choice ah.. just take the package and used it... =D My sim card dont have contact number.. so im adding all contacts number about 2hours++ walau... 161 contacts... crazy liao.. wahaha... anyway... happy get it.. ^^ i will very treasure it... =) I think didnt miss up anymore contacts number ba... and i deleted some contacts number.. it is because like never contacts... ZZzz and lazy to key in..so tired you know!! >D

i need try to learning it about iphone..wahaha..since im studies also got about iphone.. but not so details... and now.. myself to experience it... wahaha... im like a noobie using iphone right now.. wahaha.. >D typing msg also very slow... omgs.... soon will used of it..then i think will become fast a bit.. =P

Today also is my brother Small birthday... wish him always happy and smile...
yesterday night just bring him going to ampang eat korea food... he was so happy... we always love you..brother... =)
Happy birthday....

So tired will those assignment... Zzzz but tonight need to watch Spain vs Germany..so i get prepare now... wahaha... Germany Go GO GO!!! =D
take care everyone... wish you all always happy.. =)
shi wei~~~ =]

~~~ Football Fever? ~~~

Wahaha.. this recently keep going mamak or station1 watching football with my brothers together.. wahaha... really fun and happy can having such crazy fever with them together shout GOAL~~~~~~~ then sudden line man or referee didnt saw it.. then "DEN" like that also no in or they miss it.. wahaha... besides, really happy watch with them.... still got 3 more match to go?? i think just can watch final with them.. lolz... anyway... LAST NIGHT was the crazy night?? watch jor Argentina vs Germany... 0 -4 after that, go simon mountain drink SKOL.. <--- suck.... after that, going station1 with SMALL,SAM,SIMON,SHIN SHIN, and Aeron at there open jor 4bucket Toborg(beer)as our drinks.. wahaha... Then watch paraguay vs spain... YES 0-1 wahahaha... After finished watched... GOING cc with them playing games together.. .SO LONG never play so crazy already.. at the end, SMALL said.. we old already.. not 18 sui pop pop cui anymore.. wahaha... =D really lo... so easier bone pain... >D

Anyway i great to have such frens... =) thanks to you all so concern on me... really love you all and appreciate it. =) Thanks my dear Frens.. %^^5
Just try my best enjoying my life!! ^^

~~~ Tired boys!! ~~~

~~~ Recently so easy tired... have to rest more to recovery... is it my mentality tired or physically tired ?? I really dont know why suddenly becomes like this?? erm... anything goes wrong??? or myself feels personality of mine got problem.... or myself force self to do something over already... haha...

anyway.... changing myself is the best way to get myself grow up... wahaha =D

whatever ah... just keep going oh to get my studies successful.. =)

~~~ Finished Presentation!! =D ~~~

This is the ice-cream that i ate at TS. Health ice-cream... wont so sweet... very nice.. you all must go and try it... =)


Finally finished presentation.. but lecturers told me maybe got something need to edit... wahaha.. anyway.... i have to start my IP B soon... wahaha.. lecturers told me they like my attitude!! erm..... anyway... thanks to them for comments my presentation... wahaha.. hopefully will nothing much to changer... =D
Is it time to get revision for others subject already... still got 1 group assignment need settle it soon too... wahaha...

~~~ Completed IP A ~~~

finally today im completed my IP A.. wahahaha.. hopefully i can get great result on it.. erm.. so scary.. but monday i still need to present.. wahaha.. wish myself good luck on it... erm... suddenly feels a bit relax.. maybe because im done my IPA ... wahahaha... really happy... This saturday will going out with a girl.. haha... =D
erm.... anyway... the next is my IP B...have to put more times to do it.. jia you go ahead... and the next is this semester others subject assignment.. is it time to do and revision for mid term exam... anyway... wish my self good luck..and wish all my frens all the best~~ ^^
take care.. smile always to remain self happy go lucky!! =D

~~~ Jason birthday Celebration ~~~

Jason birthday celebration... wahaha... we all having dinner at souled out!! it locate at Mont kiara there... the foods taste delicious... wahaha.. next time can going there... ^^ however is it quite far away... =D
If couple wish to have candlelight dinner right there also no problem... environment quite nice~~ ^^
Im taking lamb chop.. (my favor) lol... erm... middle well... really delicious... love it... =D
erm.... some others food also very nice... hope you all going and enjoy it by self.. ^^
erm.... waiting photos uploading by frens.. wahaha... and happy night of celebration...
Hope he is love our present and get a best memories... =)
Wish you always happy ya.. brother JASON!! ^^
I have to start rushing back my assignment... hope i really can finished it on FRiday!! =) JIa you!! ^^

~~~ Clubbing!! ~~~

Last night going MISK clubbing with frens celebrate birthday...
drinks Beer + Black Label = VOMIT... ><
this is the 1st time im drinks until VOMIT... next time i wont combine 2 different alcohol anymore... yuck~~~ ><
wahahhaa.. but lucky im feels nothing... =D
need rushing my final year assignment... fight fight fight!! ^^

~~~ A great celebration with Ivan ~~~

Wahaha..last night having a great celebration with ivan birthday...
Ivan wish you always happy ya...
and today im sick... lolz.. great!!^^
erm..tonight want go to watch movie or not le?? aiyoyoy~~~ =D
erm.... anyway..Ivan... we all Gang forever.. hehe >D
is it time to going UCSI study.. >D

~~~ Try New =) ~~~

Wahaha... yesteday out with them.... go gai gai here and there... however is just a while.. but really fun.. =) erm... myself also get bought 1 things!! my ku zhi.. =D erm... for presentation use!! ^^
erm.... and today is a time to meet up with them.... >D
maybe i have to try all new things in my life... i should not stay old style anymore... i have to improve more... =)
New generation in my life again... =)
must try to be more brave and confident to going on what i wish to get... ^^
第一次见你就有一种触电的感觉~~ =D 触电S.H.E~~ =D 希望我们还有机会一起gai gai~~~ =D
However we didnt chat much.. but really felts happy and nice to meet you all!! =D
thanks ya... have to work harder on this 2 days to finish my works.. =D
jia you jia you gambateh~~ =D

男生的痛，有时女生不会懂。。。Share

女生不懂，当女生在为男生不打电话生气时，男生可能在干着又苦又累的工作。。。

女生不懂，当男生为女生披上他自己的衣服是，他也是如坠冰窖。。。

女生不懂，当女生一句话让男生沉默的时候，男生不是生气，而是深深的受伤。。。

女生不懂，当看到男生一只快乐时，不是男生没有痛苦，而是全部埋在心底。。。

女生不懂，当女生为男生付出的时候，男生不是看不见，而是不善于表达。。。

女生不懂，当男生挑剔女生不好的时候，在别人面前却夸的如天仙一般。。。

女生不懂，当男生转身的时候，女生看不到男生眼底的悲伤和心理的泪和血。。。

女生不懂，当男生失意的时候，永远是孤独的喝着酒。。。

女生不懂，当男生在坚强的外表下，有时候是一颗异常脆弱的心。。。

女生不懂，当男生悲伤的时候，永远不会骂女生，是因为男生还深深的爱着她。。。

女生不懂，当女生痛苦的时候，男生的心痛永远不会比女生少。。。

女生不懂，当男生离开的时候，并不代表他不爱她，而是不想浪费她的青春和感情。。。

女生不懂，当男生选择成为过客的时候，男生的心中永远刻着女生的名字。。。

女生不懂，当男生装傻的时候，不是忘记，而是在想如何给女生一个惊喜。。。

女生不懂，当男生生气的时候，不是因为不能承受女生的无理取闹，而是因为被女生的话深深地伤害。。。

如果一个男生真的爱一个女生，他的许多都是女生不懂得，男生对女生的尊重和爱也不会比女生付出的少，因为男生承受的东西本就很多，男生的心不会比女生坚强，因为女生可以发泄，而男生却只能压在心底。。。很多时候不要太责怪一个男生。。。因为他爱的同样甚至更深。。只不过被深深的藏起。。。

~~~ 20 May Last Night ~~~

20 May... So fast the end of may is around the corner.... im so scare about my studies... >< really so hard to handle it this times... YEar3 subjects really unbelievable harder.... =X
erm... anyway today is my 1st time meet with my 2nd maker of Final year project... wow... she told me to make clean about my title and get 3 journal... im on trying to get the idea with the journal.. really so much journal have to read... ><
after that, afternoon im out with 2 funny girls going to MV to take lunch and walk around... =D
then night im going celebrate my good fren chinese birthday celebration.. =D wow.. really enjoy.. the seafood really so delicious and nice... wakaka... next time go again.. =D Then we going so many place with to get dessert.. but also no place can available to us... at the end..we going to paparich to take tea and chit chat right there and also group photo.. =D
Now... im have to start my journal again.. wish myself good luck.. =)
jia you!! ^^

~~~ moody wei ~~~

Moody wei... erm... what im did now.. keep on smile.. but not really happy... im really moody of what happening last night event and today morning before came to uni... I have no idea whats wrong with my life... it is i really need face such frens and family to in my life!!! or i have to ignore all of them to just focusing studies in my last year.... when thinking the things that happened to me.. i really unhappy and moody.. im really dont understand why???? frens like that... family like that.... it is im really so no point for you all to care???? im also a human been... i got feeling.. im not a robot... nobody telling me it is is myself problem or what.. i also dont know how to face it... i really moody... i dont know can i sharing with who... so im just share at here to release my feeling.. Seriously, how long i gotta standing here so strong to face it???? i would never know about it... At least i know.. i will DOWN soon~~~
Moody Shi Wei

~~~ Midnight celebration ~~~

Wow... last night i was going celebration Nikko birthday..
My frens plan at Newway leisure mall there have a celebration....
10pm something we going to leisure mall newway... 11 we start singk right there...
Before that, we giving the cake to counter and telling them 12 take the cakes in....
!@$$^#$%# give them za dou.. they came to our room asking again.. WALAU eh, at the same time.. NIkko is going to toilet.. so the staff asking NIkko... WTF... we all Stunned right there at the moment... really give them za dou BOOM.... anyway... we also having a fun celebration right there...
Start singing.. all pick CLUBBING songs.. omg.. they really thought at clubbing.. wakaka... after that, what songs we also sing.... 12am celebration and cut cake.. eat cake.... sing birthday non-stop songs... >.< after that, continue our singk event.. xD
ANd got 1 things i want to share.... "爱yi冰" drinks is becomes loogan drink.. really swt... =.=!! im asking their staff... what drinks is it?? he replied me.. ai yi bing lo.. >.< swt... really 1st time heard ai yi bing got loogan... xD really swt... !! =D
3something we all back home.. im super tired... early morning wake up going to uni that time i also drive so slow... my eye was so sleepy.. cant even drive properly.. wakaka... erm...
SO... HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIKKO~~ =)
ALL THE BEST!!! ^^

~~~ Weekend!! >< ~~~

So fast sunday again... but this sunday abit meaningful.. it is because today i need went back my temple chi hui tang to make the enzyme.. =D wakaka..
early morning wake up and get prepare to going there... I bring my own knife and chopping board.. at the end, my knife not enough sharp!! so need borrow with my sister to get their knife and chopping board as well~~~ wakaka... =D
After that, we start cut all the pineapple.. omg.. got so many!! but our teamwork make the job easier... we just used 1hours++ to finished up everything... ^^
Team working really fast to finished a same things.. ^^after that, we had a small meeting about the year end camp side visit and vote the date!! wakaka...
Then lunch then going back home... at now... i felt better than im just stay at my room... but now also same... at least morning im doing some nice works... =D
picture they will upload soon.. i will get some and upload too.. =P
All the best.. my fren!! =)
Year3 3weeks already.. OMG~~~
**p.s : my temple sister also said my hair too short not nice... T.T **

~~~ Now i only knew it ~~~

~~~ Now i only knew it ~~~
wahaha.. my short hair are no accepted by my frens... =>.<=!!
They complaint said i cut so short not nice.. OMG..
wahaha.. then ok.. i will listen to you all... keep in long back... ^^
this is my short hair~~ >D
NOw may.. already a bit longer already... =D but never take picture yet.. so just upload april that i after cut few days picture.. =D

~~~ 2nd Week of Year3 ~~~

This is my 2nd week of year3!!!

last week im works + study 1 days + fren 21 birthday party!! =D

photo will upload soon... im not yet get it... so wait me get it only post to here... share to my dear frens who care me.. ^^

erm... anyway... really tired ~~~ but like that i only felt my life so colorful... haha >D a weird wei need self tired... xD

erm... Now im enter year3... it is times to more hardworking on it!! but i realize it is so hard right now... so scary me... T>T

Today just 2nd week 1days classes only.. then giving assignment1.. omg... ><> <"""

Yesterday 9 May 2010. My ex suddenly sms me asking me things and ask "How are you"!!

Dont know why i felt so relax and happy to receive her msg... anyway.. i wont think too much.. at least now we be fren. however it is just a 陌生人的朋友~~~ =)

I will wish her forever.. xD i think she will never can be my gf anymore.. but i wont hate her too.. =D Deep hurt in my heart i wont recovery so easy... xD need wait my fate to help me recovery!! =D wakakaka~~~ =]

Yesterday, after take dinner with family.. my family want get new 衣橱 to my sister.. and her give me use!! when reached home..i need clean this and that on my room to move my sister old 衣橱 to my room... =) until now im not yet cleaning up... omg... xD

I think i need take more times stay at uni to finish my works only going home if i dont have any activities to do after class.. ^^

Anyway.. it is times to stop wrote my blog.. =D

erm.... wait i upload ba~~ =P

shi wei!!

~~~ So tired ~~~

Wow, just 1st week of May.... im so tired on it...

It is because im working.. so im tired.... whole bone painful~~~~

maybe it too long never did so long on caring things... wakaka xD

erm.... somemore is overnight doing job... non-stop cutting flowers.... feed them drink water... wakaka... really funny!!! erm..... tomorrow need to went to sepang there works again... wakaka... after that, next week i really need to start focus on my year3 study... erm.... i need more study it... It is because year3... i need try my best to get score an higher marks to get higher CGPA!!! =D

hope i can do it... After this writing.. it is time for me to write the draft reports of my IP ( Individual Project... wakaka xD go go go.. .FIGHT!! =)

~~~ So True about this!! ~~~

一个人的脸上有太多的笑 ，是因为心里有太多的痛， 因为伤了 ，所以伪装!!

里面的一切一切都是很对!!! 对于我来说,里面的资料真的是对!!! 有好多的都说中我!!!

简简单单、快快乐乐的活着!!!

可是社会上的残酷把我给整死了!!!

想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的,肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯,无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。

可是现在社会上的人都认为我是有心在说和针对他们而说!!!

面对自己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越

我只可以自己的在夜晚里哭泣!!

向往放纵自由的生活，却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着，很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿

因为我是笨蛋~~~

当我在阅读这个文章的时候都会想到自己像它显示的!!! 真的好感动有人把它给写出来!! 谢谢!! =D

Nice 一个人的脸上有太多的笑 ，是因为心里有太多的痛， 因为伤了 ，所以伪装

总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，嘻嘻哈哈的，没有烦恼，像个小孩，
他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣，我很喜欢玩，
我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容，
好多人都会羡慕他们，
然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方，
他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面，
更没有能力一个人独处，
因为当夜深人静的时候，
他不知道一个人会发生什么事，
坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴

没有人读的懂他们，
想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤，
然后自己对自己说：其实也没什么，命运吧！
所以他们就整天逼自己笑，
以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦！

他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑着去面对，
但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵，
只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。
他们其实非常孤独，虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地，
那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨！

他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着，
期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的，
希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。
即使别人小小的意见，也会另他们难过好久，
他们真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜欢。
因为，他们总是为别人想的很多，对别人总是比对自己好；
把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福，喜欢别人比喜欢自己多。

他们总是那样，前一秒还伤心的流着泪，
后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候，已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容。
有人说他们是向日葵，
是的，他们在意的人就像是太阳，
在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣，
而太阳照不到的背面，那悲伤藏得那么好，不愿被看见。

他们向往放纵自由的生活，
却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着，
很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。
离自己的梦境越来越来远，
不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂，恐慌、不知所措。
只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼泪。
因为在他们心里，
笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就是喜欢，远离就是讨厌。
但其实不是，他们明白了，
心好伤，眼泪就没忍住。
哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可以做的很好的。

他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，
好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决，
总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗着笑。
而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，
面对自己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大。

他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，
肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯，
无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。
所以，请别记恨他们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久。

他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子记得你的好，
因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易受蛊惑 ，
请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，
因为一旦伤害了，那就将永远弥补不回来！

如果你身边有这种人请你给予他（她）那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀，
让他（她）知道这个世界没有抛弃他们