Finally presentation successful

Finally, my final year presentation already successful... hope i can get passed.. =)
erm... work work work... try to find out what really suit for me to do... =)
go go go!! jia you go go go~~~ =)

besides, camp is around the corner.. have to prepare everything le... jia you.. go go go also.. hehe..

shi wei!!
PASS PASS PASS!!

[转]一直都没有人懂我，我习惯了一个人坚强，一个人面对所有

其时，我很累了

其实，一直没有人懂我。我习惯假装坚强，习惯了一个人面对所有…

我不知道自己到底想怎么样

有时候

我可以很开心的和每个人说话，可以很放肆的；

可是却没有人知道，那不过是伪装，很刻意的伪装

我可以让自己很快乐很快乐，

可是却找不到快乐的源头，只是傻笑。

我不习惯把事和别人说，因为我不习惯别人用可怜的眼光看我。

其实，我很珍惜身边的人，只是生活的压力让我善于遗忘，把那些记忆通过通遗忘

我以为遗忘可以让自己快乐起来…

可是，我感觉到的却是更多的寂寞…

黑夜来袭，周围的空气很冷…

一个人坐在草地对着天空发呆…

也不知道自己脑子里在想什么…

怀念过去，仅此而已…

其实，我也很渴望有一个人能懂我；能走进我的心…

其实，我很累了，真的想放下所有…

可是现实的压力只能让我背着这些慢慢走…

登fb进入自己的空间

看看有多少人还在意着我，来看过我，我有多少空间动态…

接着

下拉，再下拉…

更重要的是自己关心的那个人的动态…

却只是看看，并不打扰…

何时发现，我不再爱写日志，即使有最新的日志，前面也会带个[转]…

不是我变的懒了，而是我疲惫了…

情愿用别人的语言，来抒发自己的情感…

挂了fb，却不上线

挂了fb，却不聊天

只是反复着‘展开分组’和‘关闭分组’…


上线，是为了打发寂寞；

隐身，是为了躲避失望；

就这样

挂了fb，隐了身，看着别人的一点一滴变化…

何时

我不喜欢追逐打闹，却很想和以前一样活蹦乱跳

何时

我让自己变得沉默 ，

却很想多了解身边所谓的朋友

我喜欢在很静很静的深夜，关了灯让寂静把我包裹，却又害怕黑夜…

我也会偶尔的和朋友聚聚，

或开心

或失望

偶尔，也会寂寞的拿起手机翻开通讯录，一遍一遍的… 却不知道该打给谁、、、、、 　　再好的东西都有失去的一天，再深的记忆也有淡忘的一天；再爱的人也有远走的一天；该放弃的决不挽留，该珍惜的决不放手！

shi wei!!

Tomorrow is presentation!!

Tomorrow is my final year project presentation day!! really scary right now... keep hungry... i really try my best already... hope tomorrow will nothing happening.. let me PASS... PASS....PASS..... haiz... suffer right now pula.... who can chat with me??
myself.... better dont.. later think too much again.... ah~~~~

suffer suffer...

wish myself...
good luck!!

shi wei!!

Really nice.. someone share this..

When i read it.. really so truth... =)
（1）很多话我没说，别以为我不懂。
（2）骗我可以，但不要被我知道。
（3）我可以容忍，但别超过我的底线。
（4）我可以装傻，但别以为我真傻。
（5）不做第三者，即使再喜欢。

（6）不喜欢就是不喜欢，说啥也没用。
（7）任何的真话，我都能接受。
（8）对我不留情面的人，我会记住的。
（9）不给喜欢的人添麻烦。
（10）在喜欢的人面前，能不哭就不哭。

（11）可以为喜欢的人做任何改变，但不试图改变他。
（12）用单纯的心对待朋友和为求我爱的人。
（13）对我关心的人，我会双倍回报。
（14）我不是没脾气，只是不轻易发脾气。
（15）我不暧昧，但不代表不会。

（16）宁缺毋滥，绝不因为寂寞而恋爱。
（17）但是只要爱上一个人，我敢说绝对不是因为寂寞才跟她好的。
（18）如果你拿我不当回事，我会以同样的方式对你的。
（19）有些事情不要以为我真傻…只是不愿意揭穿你而已！
（20）有些事情不要以为我真傻…只是我不想让你的形象在我心中完全破灭而已！

wahahaha.. share to all of you.. ^^
hope you all remember it... =D

~~~ November almost the end ~~~

Times really fast forward already.... now already is 27 November!! Today early morning going to works already... however it is saturday!! i still have to works... wahaha !! great.... and it is my best fren!! sha po birthday... i have sent her a wish... so sorry ya cant going to find you and treat you eat.. next time ya.. my best fren!! =)
wish you always happy!!

through today can play badminton... but cancel already... oops... cant exercise again... haiz.... nvm ah.... so hungry... really what can i eat... erm.... somemore alone, really dont know can eat what..... later only go out walk and have a look.. =)

tuesday 30 november have to present my final year project.. just hope to pass... dont think too much anymore.. take time to get ready already... =) jia you to myself.. go go go!!

i still cant let go?? erm....
no ideas... tired!! suffer!! stress!!
dont think ah... family, frens , love.... just let it beside..

tired~~ shi wei!!
go find food 1st.. hungry sei... xD

~~ Wrong mistake!! ~~

Wrong mistake... why im so "大头虾"!! im never did this kind of mistake.. this time really wrong mistake... really so sorry to Hou hock... but anyway... next time you black list me also nvm.... im understand what is 信用!! im spoiled my own 信用 only... but im really not the person... if you bu shuang me i also cant do what... is myself mistake and wrong...

this recently stressful make me did a lot mistake... could not have this kind of things happening again... really big mistake... give myself another warning..
but im 信用 1... im always 信用 当饭吃~~ but this time really mistake.. haiz.. really so sorry to hou hock.... sorry!!

erm... sometime i think, i did this kind of mistake.. maybe it is because myself too lonely.. while got people invite, then too happy and didnt check my date list.. until this kind of mistake came out.. haiz... lonely ma lonely lo.. why want like that... haiz... cant make it again... PROMISE to self...

shi wei!!
we cant said people... because maybe people 有难而不能言!!
see back self... you are not a prefect.. nobody is it...
respect others!!! im respect you,please respect me..
im not stupid.. im just diam diam...
however im lonely.. but i still got my 信用 and 尊严!!

~~~ Now the World ~~~

Ah.... so scare with my final year project.. however im done.. so scare get fail.... just let me pass... please... hope my FYP pass!!

tired tired!! lolz... works works works.. wahaha... =D

suddenly feels something about... wrote it out 1st... xD
Now the world.... Girls = ???
erm.... if you are
leng zai + $$ ~~ all girls want...
leng zai + $ ~~ half girls want...
leng zai + bo $ ~~ girls want...
So when bo $$ + ugly ~~ nobody want...
so like me... must become 和尚 better lo.. wahaha =D

World really so funny.. wahaha.. =D
reality!!

Result Outed!!

Result Outed!! but me... down already... it is because im get F!! im failed 1 subject.. need wait until May 2011 only can take the courses... really disappointed to myself.. haiz... im just hope pass... but at the end... gg already.. i really dont know how to face my family.. i dont know how to telling my family... im really sad, stress, down... suffer right now... after finished final year project.. still have 1 subject i need to worry and take at May 2011... really a bad news for me... convo.. wait until 2012 ba.. im really useless... 2month fight.. im lost... because im get failed... really no mood.. any plans also dont wish to join.... i really dont know how to telling my family... no face to face them... really gg already....
i dont want fail IP... please just let me pass... after i hand in.. must pass... study not suitable to me... im already try 120% best to exam.. but... haiz... im get fails... really useless....

down down down... how to continue fight final year project... haiz... =(

shi wei~~

~~ My little Life ~~~

My little life... like the huge road!! longest and longest to go... it is so hard for me to keep move forward... besides, the road if full of light and darkness!! When darkness coming.. the road become so hard to move forward and also always beat me down... im so wish to get up and fight back... but really so hard for me... i need some supporter and when im unhappy.. so someone beside me to telling me whats should i do.. but nobody will... therefore i have to be strong to stand again and fight it... however im sad, stress and tired... but i have no choice...
On the other hand, when the road is light, however it is easy for me to move forward... but it will have a lot "people behind me" attack me.. i will never know... but im try my best to treat everyone nicely.. but some people will feel you are so "假惺惺" !!! Besides that, when the sky is blue!! im always smile to face everything, no wonder it is darkness and light... but when the sky turning to dark... im become a little boy and full of sadness that inside my heart... nobody know about it... if you like me... will understand!! otherwise, you will never know about it... sadness not everyone will get it... 心碎的痛苦和心酸不是每个人可以感受到!!!



The road is longest and far, it is also including the uphill and downhill road.. life really similar with the road.... Our mood always have the up and down.... it is not a easy road to my life and keep moving it.... but im always telling myself... when im down, i have to keep telling my self... soon i will up again.. i have to smile and face everything to do my best!! because im understand nobody can help me.. only myself!! Smile always is what im always done it... =)



After that, when my life come to the turn left and right road.. i start fear and stress!! it is because i never know what new challenge and problem is right there to beat me.... im have no confident to turn left and right... the fear is always inside my heart... im so suffer to face the new problem... what can i do?? haiz...
难道一个人有话直说,就是没经大脑吗??就因为我拿出我的真心对待每一个人才会有话直说!! 可是偏偏我的有话直说伤害了你们和自己!! 所以我在改变成一个哑巴的人!! =)

我不相信友情是永久的 不过我还是依然的相信着. 我知道不是付出就会有回报. 你对他好不代表他也会对你好 这个世界就是那么残忍. 他们永远都不明白什么是"友谊". <-- 赞!!

我的生活!! 一个人!! =)

shi wei!!

FYP~~ haiz!!

Final year project really killing me.. haiz...im almost crazy ah... why so hard to do it... why why why~~~~~~~~~~
who can help me... im really need help...=(
sad~~~ haiz....

noob shi wei...
useless~~~

Midnight!! erm...

Why when come to midnight... im so hard to sleep!! in a silent night make me think a lot.. haiz.. im dont wish ah... i want sleep... haiz.. why want like that treat me.. erm... sad... besides, night so wish someone can chat with me.. haiz.. but impossible will have... erm... so wish to drink wine again.. so i might drunk and sleep.. but... cant.. later mum ask!! really sienz... want sleep also so hard.. haiz... why???
no care ah.. off and try to sleep 1st.. see how?? change tomorrow midnight also rush assignment... need more fast to rush my assignment.. go go go!!

shi wei!!
wan an

~~~ Alone At Home ~~~

Wahaha... alone.. can drink wine until wing wang wang... =D
erm.... assignment final year project why so complicated to me.. haiz... how come??
drunk jor rest.. awake jor can do assignment again.. but really dont know how to do.. haiz... really complicated.... =D
red wine.. Good... =D

shi wei~~

~~ No Wonder ~~

Erm... no wonder im so thin... im think few times... now a bit believe... it is because im just 1 meal 1 days... of course im thin ah....
how come 1 meal 1 days... haha xD
When im alone.. im always just at home didnt feel hungry and what.. want go out eat also lazy... because alone.. then long long become didnt hungry.. so become so thin.... haha... this recently really thin jor lo.. wahaha... =D
erm... anyway.... just post since assignment so tired.. wahaha =D

shi wei~~

~~~ Final Year Project ~~~

Erm... really hard for me to do it... haiz.. since it is not i wish to do... and this is what my lecturer wish... im really no ideas how to do it.. have to restart my mind and reading the journal article to do it... must fast already.. i have no enough time anymore... erm.... hope i get pass... thats enough to me...

what life is i wish... erm.... finding finding...
what life only suitable me???
which life should i choose to move forward....
after choose, it is suitable me??

"Think about this, who contributed everything to us to let us grow up?"

my frens,family,love!!! those also hurting me much and let me grow up!! but also let me lose the road... i really dont know which suitable me to choose it and im wont regret... however everything im choosing the road also didnt regret, no wonder it is bad or good... i will still continue to going on... but i dont wish my life are full of unhappy...im just wish to have a happy life... it is really suit to me??? or my life should become a bad boy only suitable me... erm....

why life should give up this and choose the another....
i wont regret.... but i dont want walk forward with full of unhappiness....
road road road... which really suitable me....

keep going on... maybe soon i will get the answer already...
when im changing again... i wish im get the actual answer of what i want...

shi wei...

"being unselfish can make your life more colourful" but my life become more worst.. nobody treasure it... everyone also just selfish with own good... why i cant be selfish... maybe i got.. myself didnt realize it... but im really always think of people 1st only myself...

"money is a good servant but not a good master" really money is important, but im still 脚踏实地 working to earn it... because im understand, the world never get 不劳而获 thoery!!

arrogant!! am i?? think so... be diam diam is much good.. =)
listening better than noisy.. =D

shi wei~~

~~One Day~~

One day nice!! ^^

Every time I look at the sky after the rain
I think of the crybaby I used to be
I was blindly chasing after someone's back
Saying "I want to be stronger"
Now faded into the wind is "thank you"
Am I getting stronger?
Since I haven't got an answer to that
I'll keep walking forward

The voice flowing inside of me
Always always supports me
Teasing rain will get in my way
Because I won't run away Oh

So let's go
Will never stop
Won't lose against the flow of time
I'll keep getting back up
Because I don't want to lose something precious

Like a bird flying in the sky
I'm searching for a tomorrow I can't see
Even if I'm scared while stumbling
My eyes won't drop at my feet