何为生活,何为人生?

何为生活,何为人生?
来也匆匆,去也匆匆.在这忙碌的步伐中,我们究竟得到什么,我们又付出什么.你知道什么是生活.什么是人生吗?懂得太多是一种痛苦不懂又是一种烦恼.最容易的是认识自己,最难的也是认识自己.我们为什么而活,为了自己,为了回报,为了目标,为了你在乎的人和事......
什么是人生,身为人,就要有目标, 有追求,会努力.还要有灵魂.生活中有太多的不如意,有太多烦恼.人生道路上有太多的压力,有太多挫折,有太多的变化.如果可以选择的话,我情愿是一粒小小的尘埃,随风飘扬,无拘无束,不懂什么是烦恼,什么是累.也感觉不到什么.
因为它是死的,没有知觉.我渴望这种日子.
但是,我已经没得选择了,因为我已经是人了.所以我不能颓废,不能麻木,不能没有目标,不能没有行动,不能没有感觉.不能没有压力,不能没烦恼...
以前我因为得到太少,所以认为什么都是理所当然,还养成一种自我为中心和固执.因为从小都是靠自己长大,什么大风大浪都见过. 心理也i过于脆弱,受不了被冷落和寂寞.自己想干什么就干什么,时常会去体谅别人,也会为他人着想...可是很少为自己想~~~
现在,我认识到这样不好,所以我会去弥补,我要改一下脾气,能忍就忍.我要跟为别人着想和为自己着想,为家人着想.就算牺牲很多,我都愿意满足我在乎的所有人.
生活先放一边吧!一定要想想自己的学习吧!~~~~~
加油面对人生吧~~~
~~~诗崴~~~

~~~~ 忘不掉 ~~~~

~~~~ 忘不掉 ~~~~

这一切~ 不是都已经过去很久了吗~
为什么我的脑海还是会不断的想起那些画面~
想起那些感觉~
那眼泪~一滴一滴争着冲出来~
那心里~一阵一阵的痛~
不断的痛着提醒我忘不了那些回忆~
想念~真的是痛苦的~
眼泪啊眼泪~
你已经纠缠我很久了~
是时候别再烦我了好吗~
已经很累了~但哭后~还更累~
多想就这样睡不起来~
每一天~每一秒~ 每一个画面~
每一句对白~ 每一次一起哭~
一起笑~一起玩~ 一起甜蜜~
一起看烟花~ 一起跑街~
一起在冷得半死的夜里~
看着你睡觉~
一起拍照 一起出门~
我都刻骨铭心的放在心里~
永远都忘不了~
从看着你的侧脸有说有笑,变成现在看着你的背影发呆~~~
如今我的幸福已变成别人的幸福...
而你~
也已经在开心的过着自己的生活~
老公这两个字眼~早已不是我的了~
不过~ 看见你开心~
心里再痛~也算值得吧~
希望你们会永远都那么恩爱~
你不幸福~我还真的会难过~
在人生的道路上,你有了陪伴的人,
而我...
还是一个人的走下去
我还是我~,我多希望有人会陪我走这条路~~~
离不开~
眼泪啊~
今夜又时你陪我度过痛侧心扉的夜晚~
我 会慢慢习惯眼泪的陪伴~

~~~ Malacca perDay Trip ~~~

~~~ Malacca Trip ~~~

Wahaha... Now is 9.11pm... i reached home around 8something just now. At im here to online and write my blog again... =P

01/01/2010, i went to melaka with my kai daddy and committee Frens to have a Eat Trips... LOlz...

Early morning we all get ready and start our journal to Malacca. Total of us is 15person. 4 cars going to there. When we reached there around 8am... the 1st placer we going is the "Air Panas" wow... We went in and play almost 30mins... After that, we take picture and continue to the next destination.

The 2nd destination is at 1 of there Kopitiam to take 2nd breakfast. The food is 2bow egg, roti bakar, nasi lemak and tea O... Wow... It was so delicious ah... xD Then, we going to red house there start have fun and keep on taking picture only... Walk around here and there ah... Walk until leg already pain... is Everyone ba... =D

When lunch times, we decide to take Chicken rice...but but but... @@" too much people on q ah... therefore we going to food court to take our lunch... xD no so delicious jet... erm.... Some more we walk around and will stand at the place chat a lot.. only continue walk to another place... wahaha..really crazy... =D sometime, we was taking too much times on chatting... lolz.. and also taking picture... we already capture alot of funny and crazy picture on this trips...

But i really not real happy ah all.. haiz...

Later i will oi oi already.. it is because... i didnt oi oi almost 2days le.. include today.. OMG man... but i not tired... today half way is me drive back 1!! ><>

BUt today malacca trip was consider successful lo.. so Take good care. =)

~~~ Sad Shi Wei ~~~

~~~ About My Feeling ~~~

~我~

~~~ 我需要被关心，却没人知道 ~~~
~~~~ 我需要被疼爱，却没人理解 ~~~~
~~~~~ 我需要被珍惜，却没人在乎 ~~~~~
~~~~~~ 我需要被保护，却没人理会 ~~~~~~
~~~~~~~ 当我需要你时，你消失无影 ~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~ 当我不爱你时，你却深爱我 ~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~ 当我很爱你时，你却已离开 ~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~ 这世界为何这样对我一个人 ~~~~~~~~~~

我堕落 我累了
这一秒起，我宣布
我、要开始
堕落
累了，被、逼疯了
扛不住了，快、垮了
受伤的人不该堕落
这是谁曾跟我说的
我、该堕落吗
我知道，答案，不该
但是为什么，还是
会慢慢的堕落
其实、我不是好人
其实，我一直堕落
其实、我叛逆，虚伪
其实其实其实，我只是个
坏孩子而已，呵
谁曾把我变成这样
为什么记忆中，他的脸
模糊了，也渐渐、看不清
我是个奇怪地人
我的快乐生气悲伤
全都是没有理由的
我很轻易的做一件事
不考虑后果，不考虑任何
只要是自己想做的
我很、任性，我知道
为了谁谁谁把自己
变成了现在这样
不顾一切的爱，然后
一个人默默的舔着伤口
一个人默默品尝、泪
不想说什么，低调
其实我不是个低调的人
呵、但是，还是喜欢样
孩子有点累，真的
【呵、知道吗】
装傻装逼，我都会
只是为自己戴上面具
戴上哪个、虚伪，快乐的
面具华丽的面具
我不要自己哭泣，更不要
我 泪水被别人看见
然后嘲笑我，我不要，呵
其实一个人很好，其实
这样一个人治愈伤口很好
我不想接受任何人的帮助
和善意的一切，我不要
我不要，只是因为‘
我害怕有一天，我会
戒不掉，我会、舍不得
那样，我宁愿选择、从未
拥有过，难道不是吗
额，抱歉，跑题了
这期主题【堕落】
想请问下，什么是堕落
在你们心里面，堕落
是不是就是早恋，抽烟，喝酒
打架，等一系列的
未成年人不该做的行为
你们真的了解吗。什么是
【堕落？】你们，懂吗
其实你不是堕落，起码我们
没有犯罪，呵
我们只是默默的宣泄着
我们没做错，为什么
你们要说我们堕落，我们
没有，我们努力
很努力的过好每一天
我们没有懦弱的想到死亡
我们、依旧的活了下去’
即使我们或许做错了什么
但是你们没资格说不是吗
呵、没资格，没资格
嗯，算哦，你们不懂
额，对你们要求，不要太高
哈哈，安静了，呵
结束，最后宣布，堕落...

~~~ 1st Day of 2010 ~~~

Now is just reached 2010 few hours... Im here to write my blog... I really dont know what should i do... Today after work i went to Shabu Shabu with my boss them... It is because today is my last days... now i totally no mood at all.. i just wish home to rest... How come i will like this, when i think back about "that things that i saw and i felt... i really sad" so i really tired... i dont know how... i dont know what is suit to me to do.... to make it wont so complicated.... i really get hurt there kenal garam.... Do you know the painful???

Now 2.02am...i really moody... It is because just now happening a things again... After my dinner with boss... i went to my frens house... they got steamboat.. asked me to join them after im done.... Then when i reached... We chatting like normally... after that, invite me melaka... but i not really want go... but my frens keep want i going... somemore already not enough sit... i really dont know how ah.... but in the end i answering yes to go... And making 1 of my frens unhappy and didnt join us right tomorrow already... so make me felt i so bad.... i should just alone at home much better... At the same time, i heard those things i dont wish to know....is about "that things" haiz.... make me felt~~~~~~

What i write at 31 early morning... i will do it... I will just been continue alone.. i wont bring any problem anymore..... haiz.... No wonder i will Always Wish "you" Happy... but myself never can do it... so sorry... i get the hurt was harder to delete.... so you enjoy your happiness ba... I alone and lonely normally... therefore no need bother me... just leave me alone...

Sorry ya Ella... i know you was very angry and moody too... Sorry.. i dont know how... I not even is myself anymore... so sorry....

Wish you will have a great new Year...
Take care!!!
Wish everyone happy new year...

~~~ Shi Wei ~~~
*later needed act smile and happy again.. xD*