~~~Sudden Feel~~~
Why im said like that!! It's because im had been think a lot of things in this weeks~~~
Maybe im too lonely ba... wahaha XD so keep think~~~
Im start to think who am i again... It's what im said, do, style are hurting people???
I think back many things that i did before~~~ I found out, sometime im really got hurting people... After that, i remember it and try to change it... i dont wish to hurt people again... I know sometime im also will EMO!!! At the moment, what im saying really hurting people... But many things im just said the true, i talk very straight... i never true around and said!! im always straight forward sound out the things... i felt im like this only respected the person... But as i know, like this really hurting people....
This week im sudden thinking "her", im worry, wish to know how about her and everything of her... I not yet put down mah??? erm.... Really dont know whats' wrong with me... haha XD sot sot de again!!! Im also had dream "her" in this weeks.. I really not dare to call or sms her again... I so wish to sms and wish "her" GOOD LUCK in STPM... but im not dare... im not wish "her" miss understand or what... im not want give hope or what else again... Im felt myself not a good boy... im dont wish to hurting good girl like "her" again... Im really hope can been best frens with her again... no wonder how... Jia you with your STPM...
Keep listening OneFM every morning, really give me a lot feeling of thinking everything that they said and share to us.... Make me every morning also will think back everything i had done before... What is wrong and what is correct... And i found out... A lot of things that they share i had done before... But not everything that is im right... Im also realize what im did really is by heart... So i never scare~~~ But i also confuse.. Which is my quality frens?? which is just the quantity of frens le??? This is the OneFM questions that let me thinking~~~ I'm really dont know around me it is got quality frens??? haha xD but i also cant said i had quantity frens... I'm dont have much frens only...
That days chatting with my boss when traffic jam... He share with me everything... and he said i really know to think and very guai~~~ But i telling him im felt myself are bad... But he told me im really hardworking and chatting that times feel easy chat(communication)... not like other people~~~ harder to communicate~~ It's because got 1 of my clerk not so like share... But when im chat with him, dont have like boss saying... he chat with me a lot also... And he teaching me a lot things too.. really thanks to him... Wish him had a good future too... Boss asked me, when after study want works as what... im telling him is depend. If that time the society still had good quality... Maybe will works as IT 1st... only think Business things.. Im telling him, i dont wish works forever and i dont like keep stay at office... Im most like practical. After that days, he keep giving me practical jobs to do... And im learn a lot too... Then my boss wife also telling me, after this 2 month... if possible.. they wish i can helping them keep works... Im also free chatting with them... them also treat me very good... So great to met them... and i have earn a lot things too in this November!!! Thanks =)
Wahahaha, Also sudden think back my 21birthday... Seriously, im really jealous many people... their 21 birthday and my 21 birthday are different... im really unhappy 1... right this 21 happy birthday... im dont wish to think it again.. but this weeks suddenly flash back... make me sad again at the moment... im understand im jealous also not used.. because im really dont have quality frens anymore... But no wonder how people treat me... i still will try my best to treat each of my frens by the best way that i can do... Everytime im planning everythings also completed it myself and i wish to make it perfect and clean of information to everyone.. this is me.. i really dont like people planning then didnt keep update information... after that, last mins telling me this and that... im really dont like... I felt like this means im also not so important lo..got me or not also the same.... i realy felt like that...
Everyone also will Think for self benefit 1st... this is human been.. im also got like this... But i think back what im done.. however i got like this... but most of the things i did...also most on frens. Didnt think myself benefit 1st.... I really dont know good or not... But i felt like this very relax... Sometime im really angry and hate... When going out play.. im just wish can happy to enjoy.. but everything also got things that make me unhappy.. but im also tried didnt show out... it's because im understand everyone of them also got own mind and thinking... Sometime im really dont understand why some people only think of own benefit and dont care others people le.. only your benefit important, others people are bullshit?? haiz...
This weeks im also share my family things with my boss... And im realize my family really treat me very good enough.. however im really jealous each of my frens family.. but im understand my family.. im also never hate them... im will said thanks to my family.. Thanks dad and mum... i also love both of you... if possible... some me your love... im really wish i can felt warm... Im already very cold on everythings... And i really hate alone,lonely, cold and silent...
So many things i wish to share... but some of it already forgotten.. Everytime after works also back home and write my blog.. also no enough times... haiz...
Time's will never stop, i will try to keep going on.. however im always lonely to face everything... quantity frens really not used.. but i also dont have quantity frens.. wahaha xD
Wish STPM and SPM frens good luck and jia you~~
Take care!!
Writing is the only way to let me share half of the things that in my heart..
Cold heart Shi Wei... xD
Why im said like that!! It's because im had been think a lot of things in this weeks~~~
Maybe im too lonely ba... wahaha XD so keep think~~~
Im start to think who am i again... It's what im said, do, style are hurting people???
I think back many things that i did before~~~ I found out, sometime im really got hurting people... After that, i remember it and try to change it... i dont wish to hurt people again... I know sometime im also will EMO!!! At the moment, what im saying really hurting people... But many things im just said the true, i talk very straight... i never true around and said!! im always straight forward sound out the things... i felt im like this only respected the person... But as i know, like this really hurting people....
This week im sudden thinking "her", im worry, wish to know how about her and everything of her... I not yet put down mah??? erm.... Really dont know whats' wrong with me... haha XD sot sot de again!!! Im also had dream "her" in this weeks.. I really not dare to call or sms her again... I so wish to sms and wish "her" GOOD LUCK in STPM... but im not dare... im not wish "her" miss understand or what... im not want give hope or what else again... Im felt myself not a good boy... im dont wish to hurting good girl like "her" again... Im really hope can been best frens with her again... no wonder how... Jia you with your STPM...
Keep listening OneFM every morning, really give me a lot feeling of thinking everything that they said and share to us.... Make me every morning also will think back everything i had done before... What is wrong and what is correct... And i found out... A lot of things that they share i had done before... But not everything that is im right... Im also realize what im did really is by heart... So i never scare~~~ But i also confuse.. Which is my quality frens?? which is just the quantity of frens le??? This is the OneFM questions that let me thinking~~~ I'm really dont know around me it is got quality frens??? haha xD but i also cant said i had quantity frens... I'm dont have much frens only...
That days chatting with my boss when traffic jam... He share with me everything... and he said i really know to think and very guai~~~ But i telling him im felt myself are bad... But he told me im really hardworking and chatting that times feel easy chat(communication)... not like other people~~~ harder to communicate~~ It's because got 1 of my clerk not so like share... But when im chat with him, dont have like boss saying... he chat with me a lot also... And he teaching me a lot things too.. really thanks to him... Wish him had a good future too... Boss asked me, when after study want works as what... im telling him is depend. If that time the society still had good quality... Maybe will works as IT 1st... only think Business things.. Im telling him, i dont wish works forever and i dont like keep stay at office... Im most like practical. After that days, he keep giving me practical jobs to do... And im learn a lot too... Then my boss wife also telling me, after this 2 month... if possible.. they wish i can helping them keep works... Im also free chatting with them... them also treat me very good... So great to met them... and i have earn a lot things too in this November!!! Thanks =)
Wahahaha, Also sudden think back my 21birthday... Seriously, im really jealous many people... their 21 birthday and my 21 birthday are different... im really unhappy 1... right this 21 happy birthday... im dont wish to think it again.. but this weeks suddenly flash back... make me sad again at the moment... im understand im jealous also not used.. because im really dont have quality frens anymore... But no wonder how people treat me... i still will try my best to treat each of my frens by the best way that i can do... Everytime im planning everythings also completed it myself and i wish to make it perfect and clean of information to everyone.. this is me.. i really dont like people planning then didnt keep update information... after that, last mins telling me this and that... im really dont like... I felt like this means im also not so important lo..got me or not also the same.... i realy felt like that...
Everyone also will Think for self benefit 1st... this is human been.. im also got like this... But i think back what im done.. however i got like this... but most of the things i did...also most on frens. Didnt think myself benefit 1st.... I really dont know good or not... But i felt like this very relax... Sometime im really angry and hate... When going out play.. im just wish can happy to enjoy.. but everything also got things that make me unhappy.. but im also tried didnt show out... it's because im understand everyone of them also got own mind and thinking... Sometime im really dont understand why some people only think of own benefit and dont care others people le.. only your benefit important, others people are bullshit?? haiz...
This weeks im also share my family things with my boss... And im realize my family really treat me very good enough.. however im really jealous each of my frens family.. but im understand my family.. im also never hate them... im will said thanks to my family.. Thanks dad and mum... i also love both of you... if possible... some me your love... im really wish i can felt warm... Im already very cold on everythings... And i really hate alone,lonely, cold and silent...
So many things i wish to share... but some of it already forgotten.. Everytime after works also back home and write my blog.. also no enough times... haiz...
Time's will never stop, i will try to keep going on.. however im always lonely to face everything... quantity frens really not used.. but i also dont have quantity frens.. wahaha xD
Wish STPM and SPM frens good luck and jia you~~
Take care!!
Writing is the only way to let me share half of the things that in my heart..
Cold heart Shi Wei... xD
